Hi all, I've had an ongoing battle with depression since I was 15. Early this year I plummeted so low that my long term partner nearly left me out of desperation and i started to self-harm again. I managed to dig myself out of the pit enough to salvage my relationship and stop the self-harm but sometimes I just want to give up because it is so hard. I have no idea what to do with my life and have an overwhelming feeling of uselessness that creeps up on me unawares.
I found an absolutely fantastic counsellor and because I really desperately wanted to feel better I stuck with it and I found it really helped alongside the anti depressants. You need to stick with it as you can't solve things overnight. I was lucky to find someone I really connected with and could say anything to. I would recommend counseling to anyone.
I haven't been to my GP in a long time, I used to take medication (as a teen) but it didn't work.
No idea why, no.
I feel really guilty because i don't really have much to be depressed about. But most nights I go to sleep hoping that I won't wake up. And then I feel ridiculous because its not Normal and I'm being meladramatic. OH doesn't "get" it.
As a teen I found councelling useful, need to get around to going to GP really