I'm seriously trying hard not to open a beer right now , I got my 11 mo with me . I had the worst night at work last night which could / may result in me loosing my job I'm just so up to here with it all . I think I've been on the verge of a breakdown for a while. My anxiety is now through the roof , I've got to go into work to fill out an incident form and I feel sick about it . This beer is looking very inviting
Hi lonely first off well done for posting instead of opening that beer.
Sorry to hear you had such a bad night at work last night and that you're so worried about going in today to fill in the form. I know it's perhaps tricky to talk about the details but are you sure your job is at risk? What is it that makes you think that?
Could you put your lo in the pushchair and go out for a walk? Sometimes it's good to get out among other people, it can break that cycle of negative thoughts in your head.
Hi lonely sorry you've had such a tough 24 hours. Are you being treated for anxiety or depression or anything?
The drink thing is hard. I felt v similar yest eve... For me, I keep reminding myself that ultimately starting to use alcohol like that is only going to create more problems, and I have enough to deal with at the moment.
Practically for you and your DC - put it away at the back of a cupboard/garage. Shut the door. Maybe get out the house, even if just to walk round the block to distract yourself, call family or friend when you get back if poss. Distraction helps for me...
Well done for not opening. I'd get alcohol out of the house if you find it really hard to resist. It really won't solve anything, only numb for a little bit...it's very temporary, as has potential to make everything a hundred times worse.
Can you go to GP if you're really feeling the anxiety? Well done for seeking advice on here..things will get better
Dear lonelybunny,l have often behaved like this,its really hard. You must be tired working nights,breathing deeply for 4 mins can lower your blood pressure and ease anxiety.Go go for a walk. Ring in sick,explain the incident has really upset you.Take time to rest,it will help you think more clearly.throw the booze away. and eat something .lf in a union,talk to them,you can,t loose your job over an accident.
Thank you , I'm feeling a bit better now , I'm really finding life hard . I've got 3 DC , I work 30 hours a week my DP leaves everything to me to sort out , christening arrangements for my youngest DC , holiday arrangements , school events, tax credit forms, etc etc I'm really finding it hard to cope , he doesn't understand what problem I have and thinks I sit at home watching tv all day , I never get a break from breast fed baby , she so clingy , I'm so tired and need a bit love
Do you think you could ask your mum to have a word with your dp? (Ideally of course you would talk to him but perhaps right now that might just be another thing for you to feel like you have to do and he might take it better from someone else)
Hi lonely, speaking from experience, I'd say yes, get the alcohol out of the house so it's not a temptation. It really doesn't help. God, I can't emphasise that enough. I don't even like being around drink anymore because I know if I have one, I'll want another and another. I proved that to myself by drinking 4 large glasses of wine in about 3 hours at a friend's leaving do on Sunday and have only just started to feel better.
Taking the baby out in his pushchair when things get too tense is a good idea, to get some fresh air. A long bath if your DP can mind the DCs. Just remember alcohol only makes things worse. It sounds like you have a tremendous amount on your plate. Could DP accompany you to a Dr's appointment so he can get some idea of what you're going through? Or could your GP provide a leaflet for friends/family of people with MH issues?
And whatever you've heard about citalopram, 10mg is a very low dose and it's not technically addictive, not in the way that diazepam is, for example. You would wean off it eventually, but that would be gentle and supervised. So if you really feel awful, do go back to the GP.
Lonely - you poor thing, can you get signed off from work? my doctor signed mee off sick when i first got sick.
Honey, i really don't think 10mg is helping you, you are pissing in the wind with that dose - I have been on 20mg for a few months now and i haven't put on any more weight.
It isn't addictive and so long as when you come off you do so slowly then its fine. They recommend at least 6m on citalopram, you'd withdraw over a month probably, maybe longer, reducing the dose, but that isn't for you to worry about now.
What happened at work sweetheart?
You really should pop over to our thread lonely, its such a supportive place - look for the village xxx
Thank you , I'm better now , turns out the so called injury was a lie ! She is prone to making stuff up . I just hate panicking over everything Bd my stomach dropping and the feeling of dread. Then I'm ok for a few hours and it comes over me again it's horrid
If you are really worried about your drinking, there is a support thread called "brave babes bus" I think, try doing an advanced search on brave babes, I think mouseface started it. She is a fantastic poster, very kind and non-judgemental.
I'm glad you are feeling a bit better lonely, I hope it lasts.