Its been nearly 7 mths since H left but I dont feel any better or any nearer getting over it.
Everyone thinks Im doing OK and get lots of positive comments & pats on the back, but at night when kids are in bed, I just feel so miserable
went to mediation on Friday and I couldnt look at him for the first 10 mins. I burst into tears several times and felt so alone - 2 mediation ladies and ex just sat there while I blubbed. Then as we left I burst into tears & ended up walking down the road crying. I looked back & saw him and wanted to run to him & have a big hug...but I carried on walking.
hes got the children this weekend at his new house byu the sea (SHE has gone away for the weekend) He has emailed me saying what a nice time they had yesterday catching crabs, and that the children settled down really well.
Im pleased for both things but why cant he see that it hurts like hell to hear them all enjoying themseleves when Im missing?
Why was I not worth him trying to save the marriage? It doesnt matter what anyone says - thats how I feel....I wasnt worth it even with the thought of losing the kids, he wouldnt stay.
and thanks to mediation, we've put a plan in place so that by end of August, he'll be catching crabs with HER standing there watching our kids enjoy themselves.
my mum says "how many more times does he have to kick you b4 you stop loving him" and I just dont know....I wish I could stop so I could begin to love myself again
sounds pathetic I know
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mistressmiggins · 28/05/2006 08:37
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