can't cope anymore

[shakeyjake]

I don't expect any replies I just need to write this down.

I really don't feel like I want to be alive at the moment, I ask a complete failure at everything and my family/friends would probably be a hell of alot better off without me. I cry everyday, have no frIends really.I have worked at the same job for the last 12 years and no matter how hard I try promotions are given to the people who join later, have worse stickiness levels and constantly take the Mick. (the last one went to the lady who took an emergency day leave to take her soon to Alton towers). I constantly seem to shot at the kids and husband hasn't had a look in for dtd for months. I feel fat and ugly and now have found that my oh has been looking at porn on his phone everyday and constantly looking at page 3 girls our nuts girls which make me feel so in adequate (however I snooped at his phone do doesn't know I know that). Stingrays I feel I am walking around in my own little must where no one notices anything.

I am on anti depressants but set the moment don't see much point in going on.

[shakeyjake]

Sometimes not stingrays

[Ilikethebreeze]

I have been out today, and only now seen your thread.
Sorry I dont know what dtd stands for.
I am not quite sure where to start with your post.

As regards your work. That must be very frustrating. If I were you , I would buy or borrow or download some books on this subject. There are several books, or chapters in books about how to improve job prospects.

I suspect you are not fat and ugly, but what your oh is doing may make you feel like that.
He is the one in the wrong here.
I dont know about porn, but I do know that that is not a good thing for any relationship. You could start a different thread just about that. But also,there have been threads on MN about it. You could do a search on MN.

There have also and are threads about friens for you to have a look at.

I can understand that you currently feel a bit overwhelmed when you have 2 or 3 problems going on at once.