I can't continue fighting to survive anymore, it all too much and I'm frightened I may hurt myself badly soon..
I've been horribly emotionally abused by my mother and step father all my life. He would come into my room at night to sneer names at me, made up lies against me, tried to get me into bed when I was 15 and constantly "changed the rules" so there was always something to berate me over.
I was called stupid, lazy, a waste of space, bitch, liar, slut etc. and told to get out of the house repeatedly because they were sick of looking at me and my mother supported each attack.
I was sexually abused by my brothers friend when I was 12 and it went on for 2 years but when I told them, I was blamed for being stupid and allowing myself to be hurt
My first relationship at 16 was emotionally, sexually and psychology abusive and went on for 5 years, again I got no family help or support.
Nobody believes me and I'm alone with my pain. I'm in therapy and on medication now but none of it helps. I can barely function because of the flash backs and nightmares.
I don't want to kill myself but I want to die. I imagine stepping out in front of a car every day and ending it all.
I don't even belong here, I'm not a parent but everyone I've reached out to in RL has called me a liar and shunned me.
I've been branded a liar and trouble maker because of the stories my mother and SD constructed over the years but I'm not making this up..
I just want help and to be believed..
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Can't do this anymore
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CallMeDaughter · 17/05/2013 20:39
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