Ok as per my other thread about my health anxiety I think I've developed OCD ? I'm waiting to see breast surgeon as I've convinced myself lump in my breast is bad news. I now have to check my boob 20 times a day , I can't help but check it . I think it's OCD anyone have any experience of this ?
When I had OCD I was very resistant to the label as my problem didn't seem to fit the stereotype. But OCD can accurately be described as intrusive thoughts and behaviours. Mine started as anxiety. Worth keeping an eye on, but really this is all just semantics. You know you have a problem. Breast issue aside, are you n any form of treatment? CBT was my absolute saviour.
I'm not an expert but I have a male friend with full-on diagnosed OCD and I know that one of his 'things' was repeatedly checking himself for lumps - he'd take an hour in the shower every morning cause he just kept on checking. He's on meds now and much better (don't know which meds).
My health anxiety turns into OCD very easily when it's bad - I used to spend hours checking myself for bruises etc (it also manifests when driving - I will convince myself I've run someone over and have to drive back to check, or check the news endlessly for hit and run accidents etc). I don't have it so that I'm cleaning things - that's not how mine manifests, but it's is certainly the intrusive thoughts and checking rituals. I found that citalopram did help, but not until I got to 40mg - the lower doses I was on did nothing. I also find cbt incredibly helpful, but only once the medication has kicked in - otherwise I seem to be able to do the "theory" of cbt without actually believing it, if that makes sense. I'm working towards being able to do CBT without needing the medication as well, but am not there yet.
Hi there. I've seen a couple of your posts - how are you today?
I am the same. I really am. I suffered horrendous anxiety after DS and it turned into health anxiety. I found a lump in my armpit. Three doctors said it was nothing. I insisted on an ultrasound. It wa a cyst. I STILL worry about it - and that I have other cancers. I've convinced myself of breast cancer, lymphoma, all sorts.
On the lead up to my scan I really felt like I'd lost it properly. I just wasn't coping with the possibility that it could be cancer. I've never gone down the AD route as they terrify me, but I was a whisker away from actually needing sme kind of tranquilliser to get me through. I really, really sympathise with you - ad want you to know you're not alone.
I just can't accept that I'm not going to get cancer at a relatively young age (I'm 31). However what's helping me is trying to let go...I.e. there's nothing I can do to control if it did happen. It's not in my hands. What also helps is thinking about what would happen if I did get cancer. Would I just give up? No! I'd fight.
Running and trying to keep healthy is also helping.
Thank you wine time I'm actually feeling better now I think the citalopram is calming me down , I've only checked a handful of times today but I'm not panicking about it ifyswim . I'm nearly 29 I shouldn't be worrying like this but can't help it xx
I agree it is just semantics, they are all just different ways of labelling pretty similar behaviours. CBT or ACT (Acceptance and Commitment Therapy) get my vote. I probably find ACT a bit better than CBT but have done both, therapist suggested mindfulness and ACT for me.