Hi. I'm hoping that you lovely ladies can help me please. Everything seems to be out of sorts at the mo. Work is really overwhelming me, I have spoken with my manager but I have some tough cases at the mo and I am taking more on board than I should. Also, DD is being really hard work and I haven't been responding to her very well. Things were bad yesterday and I ended up in bed sobbing thinking she and DH would be better off without me. I don't mean as in leaving, I was imagining me going out and crashing the car into a tree. Am in tears now typing this and I know that I have to function normally tomorrow, DD to school and me to work.
If I ask for a GP appt tomorrow, will they think that I need to pull myself together and sort the issues out? I really don't have the strength to do it anymore.
I don't think you need to toughen up at all. but you need to work out why you feel so bad. losing you would be The Worst Thing ever to happen to your DD so remember that. please speak to your Dr and at the least speak to someone who can gel, you work through this.
I will speak with someone Bonzo, to be honest I think this has been coming on for a while but I have managed to ignore it up to now. I have been depressed some years ago, but was after losing my parents. I don't have that excuse this time. Maybe it's just stress?
So, I spoke to a work colleague and she has made me see sense, I had talked myself into not going to the doc's but thinking I could sort myself out. I have an appointment for Wednesday. I'm not very good at talking about things because I get so upset. I think part of it is that I still miss my parents so much although it's several years since their death. I don't allow myself to "go there" and have compartmentalised this. Sorry for the waffle. Just writing it down helps.
Well done Bonzo I went to my GP this week after feeling a bit like you describe. She was great, I started crying the minute I got in but told her about various things I had dealt with in recent years including my dad dying, and my husband nearly dying and she said no wonder I felt like I did!
She has prescribed 20mg Fluoxetine (had never heard of it but it is Prozac) - which I said I was willing to try, and has also referred me to a psychoanalyst. I feel so much more positive after taking these steps and hopeful that there is a way of getting back to being myself again. Feel a bit odd getting ADs as never had them before but worh a go!
Good luck at the doctors. Be honest, tell them everything, don't be embarrassed. Keep posting on here. I posted before going to the GP and the support I got was amazing
Hi mum47. Am glad you had a good outcome with your GP. Mine has suggested I go for counselling. It's a self referral service in my area, so the onus is on the patient to want to change I guess.
I have felt better as the week has gone on, but I have been having panicky moments too. I have what I guess are OCD tendencies, i have ro get ready in the same order in the morning, have to have 4 pumps of shampoo and 20 pumps of shower gel, and so on. Anyway, I was at my desk and was panicking because I felt like I really needed to have the daily measure again of shower gel. Totally random and not like me at all. There have been other times this week also. I never panic about anything, other than when dd gets ill.
I don't know whether to try and make an appt for counselling, though don't know when I will have time as so busy at work so I can't really take time out plus I don't want to tell my manager about this. Or should I make another appt with doc, maybe one who knows me better?