I have posted before about an overwhelming feeling of wanting things to end. It started as a fantasy and it's now a really strong intent.
I can visualise taking an overdose and have had these visions for days.
I promised my therapist I'd call my GP if i felt I would act on it.
I called my GP who referred me to the crisis team who are supporting me by telephone. (weather is too bad for home visits)
They have prescribed me 6 tablets of diazepam to last today and tomorrow. I am just waiting for MIL to drop them round. The problem is I know as soon as I get them I will take them all. The feeling is to strong to fight and that is before I even have them. Part of me feels happy that I have made that decision and I know it won't kill me as it will be 30mg but I know it will numb this crappy reality for a bit.
I just needed to tell someone. I needed to get it out. Part of me knows this is ridiculous but I can't shake this.
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BloominMarvellous · 23/03/2013 12:46
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