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(105 Posts)
PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 12:31:39

Im suffering really badly with anxiety and panic attacks....saw doctor on Monday he gave me se tablets to take if the panic attacks get to much but they are addictive so can't take everyday. I don't want to take one incase I have a bad reaction or get addicted.

I just want to feel better again.....I can't cope with the never ending anxiety building inside me.

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:02:34

I think because this has happened twice before in my life and I got through without medication I feel I should be able to do it again, but at this moment in time I don't want to just 'get through it' I just want to feel better now. I think I will have to call in the morning and get something long term for it. The doctor said because it had only been 5 days it was still early days and so didn't want to prescribe anything long term. Maybe when I feel a bit better I can come back off of them?

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:04:52

Can that happen though? Two or three months and I'll be better to come off of them? When I read about them it says you have to stay on them a couple of years, I haven't read any stories about people coming off after a. Couple of months and being better.

Sorry, I sound so needy, I just want to know that I'm going to be better, what's the point in struggling through until you feel better, if you meet get there?

citalobrain Wed 13-Mar-13 14:05:07

You can come off ADs once you are feeling better Plantaseed. It just has to managed and in stages, but as long as that happens you'll be fine. There's no reason at all to think you'll be stuck on them for years and years.

TooYappy Wed 13-Mar-13 14:05:26

I had crippling anxiety for yeas and worked from home, I tried an anti-anxiety medication and managed to get out to work in an office with people which was huge for me at the time.

I have a stress disorder so will be on medication until it goes, I cannot sleep otherwise. I obviously don't like having to be turned off at night with a pill but it beats not sleeping tbh.

Another thing you could look into is CBT, you may have to go private.

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:07:45

I think working in an office with other people would help me immensely but we can't afford it and I also have my little one home with me, I could maybe afford 1 or 2 days at nursery but not a whole week.
So has your anxiety gone now? Except for the sleep problem? No more medication for it?

EMUZ Wed 13-Mar-13 14:08:38

There is nothing wrong with taking the medication. Sometimes it's caused by a chemical imbalance
My doctor said "if you had an allergy you would take the drugs, so this is no different"
Occasionally you have to stop being strong and take the help in the form of medication. And it doesn't matter if you are on it a while. I don't even think about it, I take it in the morning with my cup of tea and then go and get on with my life

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:08:57

I just hope I suppose that this is just a stage and I'll get through it. I love my kids so much and want to be well for them sad

TooYappy Wed 13-Mar-13 14:12:19

Mine hasn't gone but it did go. It was a lot better for a good few years.

I have PTSD now, it's all new to me tbh.

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:12:29

I really don't mind taking the medication if it makes me feel how I felt a couple of weeks ago, but don't want to take it of it makes me feel 'zoned out' and non emotional, does that make sense? I just want to feel my normal self, not 'muted' - I want to feel happy and joyus etc

EMUZ Wed 13-Mar-13 14:12:45

Definitely look at CBT - I had to wait 18 months on the NHS though sad
Whatever helps, yoga, meditation, swimming, hypnotherapy....

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:13:59

PTSD is what started my anxiety. Didn't have it until a bad birth which triggered PTSD and panic attacks, but then I knew why it was happening so it was a little easier to make sense of. This time nothing has 'happened' in my life to trigger it sad

EMUZ Wed 13-Mar-13 14:14:33

But if you have to go through a stage of feeling neither joyful or sad, surely that's better than panic?
It really honestly doesn't affect me (my medication anyway)
I've been incredibly happy and incredibly sad (new relationship and breakup)

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:14:47

18 months? That feels like forever away sad what do they do?

EMUZ Wed 13-Mar-13 14:16:02

It's hard to explain but she talked me through a lot of things and we did some actual panic stuff - I'm not good with things I can't "escape" from like lifts and crowded places so we went out to a shopping centre and in lifts etc

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:16:25

EMUZ you're right, it will feel so much better to just calm down inside me. Just to feel calm and not worry. But feeling 'nothing' scares me. I'm grateful for your advise and hope that I will be able to still feel happy with the medication too.

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:22:16

Will I be able to carry on working when I take the medication? I won't have to be off work? I need to do the work.

EMUZ Wed 13-Mar-13 14:27:30

Of course - I work for the emergency services!

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 14:33:08

I wish my doctors were open sad

EMUZ Wed 13-Mar-13 15:08:51

I'm going to be a little harsh now and you can tell me to bog off if you want to smile
I know you wish the doctors was open, but you can't change that it isn't and dwelling on it will make you feel 100 x worse. So what are you going to do instead? Do they have OOH cover for when they are shut? What are you going to do for the rest of the day to help you?
I'm one of those irritating people that would be dragging you out for a walk and chattering away if I was there blush
You need coping strategies

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 15:22:09

My partner has come home from work so I've had a big cry. Even talking through what we can do to help me hasn't helped much. I don't know why I can't shift this desperate feeling. I've stopped work for the day but know it will be there tomorrow. I've got to stay strong as my little one will be home from school soon and I don't want her to know anything is wrong. But I can't rely on others everyday, that's what makes it worse sad

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 15:22:35

Can't use ooh as I'm too far away from surgery

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 15:23:36

Even the fact that my battery is running low on my phone is giving me anxiety for gods sake

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 15:34:20

Going out for a walk would probably help if I had the strength to walk, I haven't eaten hardly anything today, just can't face it right now. I know that not eating is probably adding to the feelings that im getting too.

EMUZ Wed 13-Mar-13 15:43:09

Probably doesnt help
How about some soup or a milky drink or even some ice cream?

PlantASeedWatchItGrow Wed 13-Mar-13 15:57:04

My partner made me a hot chocolate, managed half, so not too bad. Feeling a little better not doing any work but I can't keep dodging the work forever, I'll have to face it at some point sad

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