I was'nt sure which board to post this on, but figured mental health may be the most relevant.
In a nutshell, I feel I have way too much on my plate at the moment and feel very overwhelmed by everything with the effect of feeling incredibly powerless and apathetic to be proactive about it.
I am a single mum of DD who is 18 months old. Last year I made the "crazy" decision to enrol on both an OU course and an accountancy course at my local college, with classes 2 evenings a week. At first I seemed able to balance my studies with looking after my DD - taking her to lots of playgroups, the zoo, keeping up with housework etc. About a month ago I failed an exam on my evening course and this has led me to spiral into a sort of depression where I just feel like I don't have the energy to do any work, I have this "oh whats the point" attitude.
I am so knackered. I can only study in the evenings when DD is asleep and its just tiring the hell out of me. She still wakes up 2 or 3 times a night so I'm long term sleep deprived also. My parents are able to take her a few nights a month but it hardly scratches the surface in terms of the amount of rest I actually need. I need to do an assignment a month for OU and have accountancy exams on average every 6 weeks. Once one is done, another is around the corner.
Its come to a bit of head this week. I thought I might have to either take a break from my evening classes or quit. I emailed my tutor (who has been a massive bitch - she is consistently really rude to all the students, getting angry if people ask her questions in class ) explaining that I have not been able to come into class this week because I am really struggling and was there anything the college could do to help. I also asked if I could defer my course to next year. She came back with a reply basically telling me off for not keeping up with my homework and this is why I failed my last exam and that not only will I not be allowed to defer, if I quit half way through this course, I will be barred from ever taking the course at the college again, which I thought was a bit harsh.
I had a big argument with my ex tonight about this. He thinks I would be stupid to leave the accountancy course because it would mean that I will not be able to get a better job. He said that I have to just toughen up and work through it.
I feel like such a massive burden of responsibility and pressure. I'm losing the ability to think clearly.
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Can't cope with pressures of college and family....
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moonmanic · 27/02/2013 22:24
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