Snowymouse I think this "not supposed to good for you to nap through the day" is a bit crap to be honest. It's all well and good the medics telling us this when they have never experienced severe depression and the need to withdraw when we are very down. My CPN was always telling me not to nap in the day and not to isolate myself. My days are up and down and it's like being on an emotional rollercoaster and I want to get off!
I call my depression my Headmonster and he sleeps a fair bit and I am well and thenhwakes and goes on the rampage!! If I feel I need to nap then I do, either on the sofa with a blanket or on my bed with a nice soft mohair blanket over me. In fact I did this today and fell asleep but woke up feeling fair bit better
Like silverypussycat says we have decided it's ok to take a nap but not to overdo it (as in staying in bed all day) Yes take a look at the thread - there are a lot of poster on it now, but it is good to know others are having to find ways to manage bad days.
SO my advice is to take a nap when you need one, but keep up your personal hygiene (showering, brushing teeth etc). Do you have a nice soft blanket to cover yourself with for a nap.
Last time it was the voices I was struggling with, this time it's depression. Good point re: making a pros/cons list, it's hard to be objective about though. If they said day hospital or inpatient, I would choose day hospital, but they haven't said that.
Hmm - if the day hospital helped last time, why do you think it won't help this time. You mention it's the voices and thoughts "getting in the way" - are they whispering to you that going to the day hospital is not a good idea. Wouldn't going to the day hospital be better than going in as an inpatient.
Have a think about the pros and cons of going to the day hospital (maybe write them down) and then it would be possible for you to talk to the CT about this. I know you struggle to find the right words with the CT but writing things down, will maybe help you to think more clearly and help with communicating with the CT.
Take care of yourself snowymouse (just love that nic name!!!)
I hear what you are saying, NanaNina. I'm not not wanting to do it because of stigma, it's the voices and thoughts which are getting in the way, when I've been unwell before day hospital did help, it feels like it wouldn't this time.
Glad lurking on MN helps - does the same for me, but I think snowymouse that you need to try and stop fighting your illness and those trying to help you. IF you went to day hospital, would they provide transport. What is it that you don't like about it - having to interact with others? Would this be preferable to in patient care. You say you need to be better by Monday but you know that that isn't realistic, so don't make goals for yourself that aren't achievable.
You have to accept that you are mentally ill at the moment (as all of us on the MN threads are of have been in the past) and need support in the same way that you would need care if you had a physical illness. I know that sadly there is still a stigma attached to mental health, but we can't let that stand in the way of getting/accepting the help that we need.
Well the email I sent has got them (more) concerned about my level of risk (and they have copied it to everyone and my notes). They are really pushing day hospital now, but I really cannot face it so they will review that on Monday.
The CT have said they will do daily visits rather than phone calls, it feels like a backwards step to me, but they say phone calls aren't working.
It was very hard to let them in, but I suppose at least I did.
I don't think you have "dropped yourself in it" by e mailing the CT about your sucidal thoughts. I think you have been honest with them and they can't ask for anything more. OK It might increase their concern but you must remember that they are acting in your best interests.
The thing about suicidal thoughts is that they are a very common symptom of depression. Thankfully it's suicide ideation in most cases (where you think about suicide and methods etc) but you aren't going to actually make an attempt on your life.
When I am having a rough time with depression, I think of suicide quite a lot and I go through the methods that I know, but I don't think I would go through with it.
What do you mean snowymouse that you think you are in danger of attempting suicide. Have you made a plan. I think it's really important that you are honest with the CT.