just need to tell someone how bad i feel

[holstenlips]

i think i am depressex, quite badly i think.
my parents are a long way away and unwell.
i am a lone parent.
i have been suffering with anxietyfor months
after a couple of social events i feel ive gone over the edge. i hurt all over but its not a physical pain
i am hanging on for tomorrow when i can call my gp surgery for an appt.
i feel so low. i dont know how i will get through this.
thanks for listening.

[biffnbuster]

Well done for seeing that you have a problem and for wanting an appointment at the drs. sounds like you are having a tough time of it at the moment. Ill parents and being a lone parent = no one to help shoulder the burden.

[holstenlips]

thank you .

[Christmasisnearlyhere]

Hi holstenlips, depression and anxiety are horrible, hope you can get what you need when you get the appointment.

[holstenlips]

thanks i hope so too. the minutes are literally dragging. ive never felt so strongly that i need a doctor. think i will never stop crying when i get there. i have to work every day this week. have in my head that i will cope by putting on headphones and avoiding everyone. i feel sick at even leaving the house.

[HellesBelles396]

The doctor might sign you off work. Have you thought what you'll do if the doctor suggests this? Where is your child when you work? Could you still send he/she there if you do get signed off work to give you a chance for a rest?

[holstenlips]

i cant take time off work due to having had a lot of sickness at start of this year (cancer) and then 2 weeks off for anxiety recently.
my kids are in school.
i think i will be able to front it out with the kids til bedtime.
my head will not stop all night but now i just sit up and drink tea.

[holstenlips]

just offloading really as been awake for an hour or so.
i have been quite low for a long while plus bad anxiety but now i feel like i have really sunk i dont even feel like me at all. its happened quite quickly
i cant but i want to not exist. cant see any future.
i am not suicidal btw
not sure how i will get out the house tomorrow to do school run/go to work
hope i can see gp

[BlueyDragon]

Holsten, I'm no expert but can't read and run. Hang on in there until you can access the help you need tomorrow. It sounds like you've been through a lot this year already; you can get through this too. Have you got anyone close you can talk to, or maybe try The Samaritans? Just to get you through tonight. Distract yourself if you can - familiar books work for me because they don't require brain power but are comforting IYSWIM.

There is a future, it may not feel like it right now but with some help you will get there.

[HeartOfDixie]

Holsten, I appreciate it makes no material difference but I wanted to let you know you are not alone. I sit here awake, feeling similar things to you waiting for the morning so I can get to the docs. The radio helps me sometimes.

[holstenlips]

thank you. i really appreciate your replies very kind of you.

[holstenlips]

seen the gp today. got some anti depressants. managed to work as well. hopefully i will start to get better now. thanks for all replies x