Ive been struggling since DC2 was born 3 years ago, moved to a new house, lost my job (redundancy) DH working and we are scraping by on his salary.
DC1 started reception in September, and DC2 just started with 15 hours preschool.
I just feel I'm not coping or enjoying my children, my house is a mess, I can't seem to get motivated. I feel I'm getting through/enduring each day, not getting any pleasure from anything.
I don't know where to begin to go back to work, social scenes terrify me. On occasion I've been invited out, I back out with an excuse at the last minute, I avoid leaving the house apart from essential school run or supermarket. I don't really have any friends and I've drifted from others. I'm so lonely but don't help myself out of it by avoiding social contact.
My and DH and I are drifting apart, I know he resents me for not keeping the house clean and tidy when it's my job, I've put on weight through comfort eating. I don't feel we're equals anymore that I'm beneath him.
My doctor suggested Citalopram for depression. The box is downstairs, I haven't opened them as DH wasn't keen on the idea, thinks I should "snap out of it". I'm scared of starting the tablets. I read the leaflet today. Should I take them will they "fix me"
I'm so down, I feel so unworthy, my children and my Dh deserve better. I don't want to be here anymore.
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Ashamed to be feeling this way.
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FleeBee · 09/11/2012 20:19
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