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i just want to disappear

(5 Posts)
Iamatotalandutteridiot Fri 09-Nov-12 12:51:41

It scares me that I'm starting to consider suicide.

I'm just a total fuckwit at everything.

No one would notice anyway (and, yes, I do appreciate that by posting this, I'm hoping someone notices). But they probably won't.

I wouldn't. I'm not worth it.

Sunnywithachanceofshowers Fri 09-Nov-12 14:18:32

OP, I'm sure you are not a fuckwit at everything, even if you feel that you are.

Are you able to access some help in real life? x

amillionyears Fri 09-Nov-12 19:22:17

Do you want to say more about what you have posted , I am.
I want to call you I am, rather than the full name you have posted.

What has gone wrong in your life?
To me, everyone is important.

alwaysworriedtoo Fri 09-Nov-12 22:26:44

Its good that it scares you. That means that you do care. Please let it all out on here, everyone is really supportive.
Settle down with a brew and biscuit and write!

PoppadomPreach Fri 09-Nov-12 22:33:23

Iam that is depression talking, not you.

You are not a fuckwit at everything. No one is.
I could have written you post around 10 years ago. I look back and realise how ill I was. No one really knew, I kept to it myself and presented a normal face to the outside world (as much as I could). But inside I was just dying and just wanted it all to go away. All of it. I even convinced myself my family would also think it for the best too.

Are you getting any help - GP or counselling? You will need to get help if not. Depression is a horrible, horrible thing, and it creeps up on you and convinces you that you are a problem that should just go away, don't let it win (sorry that sounds really trite).

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