I sufferd with pnd after the birth of ds. Me and dp wernt gettin on very well so it was just me and ds for a while. The lack of sleep realy hit me hard which caused mine and dps relationship to completly fall apart. He literally left me holding the baby while he went about his life partying and so on.
My health visitor got involved and i saw my gp. Things got worse and i handed my son to my mil who cared for him for around 2weeks. I had a heart to heart with dp and he agreed to be around more for ds. My ds came home but he just didnt feel like mine no bond at all.
Had anothr heart to heart with dp. This time i let it all out and things improved. Dp came home and helped out with ds.
Fast forward to today, i have everything i have ever wanted a nice home (or will be when decoratings done) a car money in the bank a caring loving dp.
But i feel my hapiness is all false my ds doesnt sleep he still wakes several times a night. Dp works long hours so its down to me to get up. And then ds is ready to start his day at 6 every morning no matter how many times hes been up through the night.
Then my day is washing clesning cooking cleaning hovering ironing shopping bath time bed time night bottles then it starts again. I am so unhappy i have just broke down on the kitchen floor and pulled at my face all because ds was crying because hes overtired.
I am so fed up of pretending and i am scared to death of ending up where i was at the begining of this year. Its all just a mess but i feel like such an ungratefull cow.
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Pugless · 12/10/2012 14:04
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