I have been suffering with anxiety/general panic disorder since the birth of my ds1 six year ago. I now have a beautiful DS2 who is 4. I seen my GP a few years a ago and had some counselling but have most gotten there on my own. I really was getting better until my boss upped my hrs to 5 days and found things were just getting too much. I have been feeling more and more anxious...but carried on regardless.
This morning just before waking I had anwful dream the I had killed my boys. Once ds was awake it quickly went out of my head, until we were sitting watching a film and the thought came into my head. I ran up the stairs away from them almost going into panic attack terrified I was going to hurt them :( I called my aunt for help and she came down as I was scared to b with them alone. What the hell is going on?? I love my sons so much and have never even thought about anything like this before.
My aunt is staying over night and I'll make an appointment to see GP tomorrow.
Am I going crazy? Is this the beginning of the end for me :(
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YommyMommy · 09/09/2012 14:32
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