If this is a bit muddled, I apologise in advance. I have come to motherhood later in life. I'm 40, and have an 18 week old daughter. I never thought I'd ever have children...not met anyone, plus got PCOS. Anyway, I did meet someone, and got pregnant fairly easily.
I was diagnosed with depression in 2008, but had had it for a while before diagnosis. An amazing friend recognised the symptoms in me, having had depression herself. I've been on citalipram ever since, on various doses, and continued taking it during my pregnancy at a low dose.
I had an emergency caesarean, and a few issues afterwards, but all is fine now.
I'll get to the point now. I'm feeling very stressed, anxious, getting migraines ( which I always get when I'm stressed) and generally feeling like a bad mother. My daughter is sleeping thru the night yet. Usually she's asleep before 7pm, I feed her at 10pm, and she will wake at 3am for a feed, then awake between 5-6am. She can be quite grumpy, and I struggle to deal with her crying/screaming or whinging. I feel bad that I can't settle her. I also feel very guilty if I'm not engaging with her all the time. I do struggle to get her to have decent naps during the day.
My partner works nights and certainly does his bit. Also my parents live close by so I stay there a couple of nights every now and then as I break. I try to get out, and go to mother and baby groups.
I just find it so hard. I do have a great GP who I saw and we had increased my citalipram recently. But it's hard to get an appt with him as he's so popular.
Sorry this is so long. Please help oh wise MNetters
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rugbychick · 03/08/2012 20:43
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