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Mental health

I have reached the point and I am calm

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failingtoomuch · 21/12/2011 17:16

I need to end my life. I want to end my life. I am at peace with doing it and feel very calm now I have made the decision. I just don't know the best way to do it. I wouldn't lie in front of a train or similar as I don't want anyone else to be affected. I would like to disappear and just do it in the middle of nowhere. There is no one who will miss me so there are no issues there. I just want it over with.

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sertraline50mg · 21/12/2011 17:19

Take one minute at a time, I understand how you feel, do you have a crisis team you can call or the samaritans?

KatieScarlettsCrackers · 21/12/2011 17:19

My love, this is the sickness talking.

Please stop to chat for a bit?

Samvet · 21/12/2011 17:19

Please hang on and call samaritans. Things can get better. Tell us more about your situation?

sertraline50mg · 21/12/2011 17:22

Instead of ending your life maybe you could change it drastically instead? Tell me what kind of things your life has in it at the moment? For eg do you have any money you could use to go away for a few days or something? This is extreme but a friend of mine has just flown off to Austrailia for a year and the pictures he has sent are incredible perhaps you would enjoy something like that?

failingtoomuch · 21/12/2011 17:22

I don't know what to say. I just can't handle life and having tried for many years I have had enough.

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Lulumama · 21/12/2011 17:23

you wouldn't be posting if you were at the stage of really wanting to do it. do you have support in RL?

call the samaritans
www.samaritans.org/?gclid=CJPG6vHWk60CFUQMfAodtl1Fng

do you have a nurse/support worker/social worker/therapist./family member/friend /doctor you can talk to?

you can present at A&E and get an emergency psych. assessment

sertraline50mg · 21/12/2011 17:23

We all feel like that at times.

KatieScarlettsCrackers · 21/12/2011 17:24

Yes, but you haven't tried 2012 yet, who knows this could be the year that makes up for all the shitty ones?

Are you taking any meds at the mo?

Samvet · 21/12/2011 17:24

Start at the beginning. How old are you? Have you been diagnosed with depression? On meds?

failingtoomuch · 21/12/2011 17:26

I expected someone to say that, lulumama. I mean it 100% I just don't know how to do it.

I have no mh support and I do take medication but I find it hasn't been working for a while as they aren't what I need.

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KatieScarlettsCrackers · 21/12/2011 17:29

Can you find out the number of your local MH crisis team, do you think?

KatieScarlettsCrackers · 21/12/2011 17:33

What meds are you on?

madmouse · 21/12/2011 17:34

Of course someone would say what Lulumama says - because it's true. You would not be posting on here if you were as ready as you are telling yourself as you know full well no one on here is going to tell you the best way to kill yourself.

I know this calm thing. I've seen it in my dh when he believed he finally saw it all clear now, he finally saw how bad he was and how pointless life etc. He's now out on the other side after lots of hard work and glad to be alive.

And before you think I have easy talking, I walked out to disappear in the middle of nowhere a few years ago. It was my illness talking. I'm also glad I'm alive.

Go to A&E and say that you are absolutely sure you need to kill yourself and let them help you.

Samvet · 21/12/2011 17:36

As it is such a final decision and you have felt bad for years you might as well find out if you can get help, a bit more time won't make any difference. Try it, call samaritans orgo to a and e. Nothing to lose is there?

RosemaryandThyme · 21/12/2011 17:38

Don't do it.

Really, there is a way to put yourself back together, advice on here is a good place to start.

KatieScarlettsCrackers · 21/12/2011 17:44

OP are you still here?

KatieScarlettsCrackers · 21/12/2011 17:45

Sorry, just realised how mad my last post was.

I meant, on MN

failingtoomuch · 21/12/2011 17:46

I have had enough.

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fairimum · 21/12/2011 17:48

i agree, if this is how you feel now is it not worth giving it one last attempt to get help - go to a&e and tell them how you feel and why - spill it all out and go along with what they offer and re-evaluate in couple of months time - if you still feel the same then ok - but you have nothing to loose by trying this first xxx

failingtoomuch · 21/12/2011 17:51

I actually thought I would get ideas.

My head hurts.

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KatieScarlettsCrackers · 21/12/2011 17:54

Your head hurts because you are unwell falling

Do you have a way to get to the A&E?

Samvet · 21/12/2011 17:54

That fact you haven't been offered ideas means people don't want you to do this and should illustrate to you how ill you are.

liveinazoo · 21/12/2011 17:56

if your meds arent working you arent thinking logically and the swirling fog of darkness becomes overwhelming.please talk to a mental health crisis team or go to a and e and be honest with how things are.depression is a horrible illness many of us need meds to adjust the brain chemicals we lack.sometimes they need tweaking again.like previous posters i agree if its been sometime you pondered for a while you can afford to take a little longer trying something else

failingtoomuch · 21/12/2011 17:56

I don't think I am ill. I think I am unable to cope with life to be honest. I have no one and just would like to go.

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failingtoomuch · 21/12/2011 17:57

I have wanted out for a long time but now I have decided to stop fighting it.

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