I don't know where to start really, not sure if im posting this in the right place, but feel i need to get it off my chest.
Am feeling depressed, have been on and off since i was 15 -i'm 33 now. I'm on fluoxetine, have had a lot of therapy in the past but not at the moment.
I am single and childless, i live on my own. I have a couple of very close friends who are very supportive but have there own lives-pregnant/married etc.
I just feel my life has no meaning. I dont have any responsibilities really or purpose, i feel like a failure, and i also feel ashamed for feeling like this because i have more than a lot of other people.
I would love a child, but have never been in a relationship that has worked out that way, have had lots of relationships, but over recent years they have been quite messy. I have a good job-i work in mental health-which is difficult in itself because right now i dont really feel up to it. The job is also very isolated - i dont have any immediate colleagues.
I'm trying to keep going, but the idea of keeping living this life fills me with terror, christmas is approaching and i just feel so sad that i don't have the things i see other people having-a partner and a child to be a family with. I don't know how to feel 'ok' about this situation. I'm trying to do the right things-keep seeing people, doing stuff but today i have just curled up under the duvet and dont want to come out.
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My life has no meaning
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aroundincircles · 13/12/2011 13:22
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