I am feeling utterly rubbish just now. This is my third time round with depression - although in reality it is sort of more that it is always there to some extent but just better at some times than others. I finally went to Drs 2 weeks ago and was given Fluoxetine. I have had the odd better day since starting it, but on the whole still have most days where I just feel so utterly rubbish. Everything is just too much for me. What I really need is for everything to stop for a bit, but it wont! I really can't take time of work(I work 80% of full time) - I would just find it too hard explaining why (ridiculous I know, especially as I work in Mental Health!) I cant give up my job (much as I'd love too) cause then we'd probably end up losing the house which I couldnt bare. I have 6 DC aged 3,6,7,9,12 and 13. We have NO family or friends any where nearby, and DH works long hours , and is currently in the middle of total stress at work too so not really able to take on much else.I have tried getting the older DC to do more, but they are actually hopeless at helping out - our fault I know - think we have no doubt spoiled them all but they all take advantage of me and expect me to do everything I am trying to ignore as much of the housework as possible, but the house is a tip, and the washing is never ending etc.....I just cant keep up, and wnat it all to stop - but it wont
I just read a very interesting book "depressive illness the curse of the strong" - and it says that you need to rest, to stop , to get better - but what if you really just cant?Thinking back the first time I had PND I got better the quickest and that time I gave up my job, and DH was able to take over a lot more to give me a break, but this time there is just no way I can stop.
I know that sounds such a self pittying post - but I am just so fed up
How do you all keep going when you feel so rubbish?
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How do you keep going when you feel like curling up in a ball?
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NamesAllGone · 31/10/2011 18:23
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