PND again at 6 months :(

[cafcaf1975]

God it's struck me again at 6 months, just about to (try) and stop BFing and the last 4-5 days i've started getting really tearfull and snappy. First can't cope with house being a mess which is difficult with a 3 & half year old and a baby I know.
Today I've just been in bit's, I know I need help again so I'm off docs in the morning. My husband is away with work from tonight till Thursday and I'm having mega anxiety about being alone even though I have my parent's to help...WHICH makes me feel even more shit because I'm 36 and should be able to cope!!
God, it's just all crap at the moment and I just needed to write this down.#Sorry :(

[Ohnoredundo]

My sympathies my love. I've had bad PND and anxiety for last six months and now DS is starting solids (and presumably taking less milk from me) anxiety is peaking again. It's nightmarish and you have my thoughts. What do you do to relax?

[sassie23]

Hey my sympathies too. I had bad PND for first 7 months of DS life didn't get any prof help except brill DH parents etc felt I was finally getting head sorted then after both DS had few weeks of tummy bugs, colds coughs etc feel I can't cope anymore. Angry, anxious, snappy and not sleeping at all which is really getting me down. Thinking of going to docs this week just keep being paranoid about something else being wrong with me causing this and maybe not just PND ? How you feeling now ?

[cafcaf1975]

hi loves, I'm still feeling shitty but glad to know i'm not alone :) Sassie you should deffo go docs and talk to someone, it's not good to go it alone and just keep carrying on...it doesn't get better on its own!!
Get docs!!
Big loves
xxx

[sassie23]

I know you're right bit leap for me has to be done even just to sort sleep habits out can deal with it better then good to talk to like minded people let's hope for better coping this week big hugs x

[cafcaf1975]

I had it with Finn, proper bad but just didn't know. I thought I was going mad. I went on citrilopram and was ok after a couple of weeks...i had the lot, mega anxiety, ocd, was laid in bed thinking terrible thoughts and it was when baby p happened and it just made it ten times worse. Now I just know the signs so thank feck can sort of see whats happening...even though i feel like utter shit and keep crying my eyes out over stupid things and keep talking to myself. It doesn't help that i have epilepsy either! lol. Bloody hell eh, what shit we have to go through for our lovely kids bless em!!
Please go docs sweetie, you will feel a lot better I swear!
xxxxxx

[Ohnoredundo]

Ugh caf caf - me too. Not on the meds though - too scared to try them.

[sassie23]

Just booked appoint tomorrow. I'm scared off meds too my sister coming off hers at the minute having troubles so I'm loathe to try but think I need to talk about it. The sleep thing is killing me. I really feel for you caf my sister has lots of health probs alongside depression so at least I am still healthy I hope x

[cafcaf1975]

well i've been docs & she was lovely. She's put me on prozac (yikes) need it though as I don't want to end up like I did before.
Will take a couple of weeks till they kick in so just got to try and keep sane till then :)
Hope everyone's ok today!!
xx

[sassie23]

Hello went today talked to lovely gp about sleep problems anxiety etc she thought I was in a low mood. Of course I eventually cried a bit, sheer shock of someone actually talking about it to me. She talked about CBT counselling or eventually anti d's. Not sure about that .... Going to try the personalised CBT see how that goes x