i think i might be depressed. i know i need to go to the doctors but i don't know where to start, i feel liek a ten minute appointment wouldn't be long enough. i am also worried they won't take me seriously. i really feel like i need some proper help but i don't know what. i cant afford counselling and i know its really hard to get on the nhs. i just constantly feel like crying, am always angry with DH and the DC, am constantly tired, life is just hard at the moment, i feel like i am wading through treacle if that makes sense. also recently i have realised that i need to deal with certain stuff i went through growing up, nothing very serious like abuse or anything, but self esteem issues (possibly stemming from my parents not being that great) i have never dealt with. i tried to talk to DH about it but he just doesnt understand he just "doesn't believe in stuff like that" and i dont think him not understanding is helping my frame of mind. i feel like i am just going through the motions of life at the minute. i feel sad all the time but also i feel numb. when i am in social situations i feel kind of disengaged, like i am not really there. i am being a shit mum as well because all my dc do is annoy me and i want to be away from them all the time. ie, to type this post i have yelled at them to go play outside (so i can concentrate) in fact i have barely even spoken to them since school pick up. other than to chuck them a drink and a snack so they don't "bother" me :( i feel like i don't want them around, every time they ask for me it annoys me. i even get cross if one of them starts crying, i just think oh ffs what NOW! although i love them dearly. i don't want them to have a shit relationship with their parents like i did.
i am sure its affecting me physically as well, i have had really bad back pain for the last few days. just want to feel normal again but i don't know where to start.
god i have just upset dd by telling her to "go away" :( she is only 2. the other one is 5 btw.
well i have really rambled here, i am sorry its long. but i wanted to quickly get everything out while i have got five mins "peace"
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i think i am depressed, could i be? i don't know where to start getting help
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MistyMountainHop · 03/10/2011 16:05
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