Yes, I know I am a nutter. I have suffered from severe anxiety for the last 6 years and I have really suffered. I would not wish this on my worst enemy of which I don't have any of course.
I have obsessional thinking and my current obsession is that during the day while my older DCs are at school and DH at work, I will collapse and die from a heart attack or stroke. I have no medical problems but get all the usual anxiety symptoms like racing heart, chest pressure, dizziness, headaches etc. I should be bloody well used to it by now but since having DC4, I am living in a nightmare. I worry about falling down the stairs with him or him hurting himself or choking on something therefore I do not get much done during the day as I always have to watch him.
The worst thing is this worry about me collapsing and DS being alone and hurting himself, being hungry or having an shitty nappy and having to wait hours before anyone realises what happened. Also there is the worry about me not being there to pick the other DCs up and them trying to walk home alone (a DC at their school was run over this morning just to make things worse ). We live far away from their school (moved last year but kept them there). I also worry when I am feeling like this that I may crash the car on the way there as I am feeling so dizzy it's like I've been drinking (am totally teetotal).
I know I am being totally irrational btw but just the thoughts bring on the physical anxiety symptoms and it's like going around in a circle. I have had CBT but it obviously did not work (I had it before and during my last pregnancy) and I have asked for more. I will not take AD's as they made my anxiety 10 times worse and I am not willing to feel worse for 2-3 months. I have read every bloody self help book going I think and I cannot get past this. I am sure when DS is older this obsession will change for another one. It really is hard to bear!
Any thoughts anyone?
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HELP PLEASE! Worried about collapsing/dying while alone with 13 month old DS!
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FrustratedFrannie · 19/09/2011 14:48
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