I have posted here quite a few times following the birth of my son and every time I've been overwhelmed with the response and each time I've been given such a boost. I'm hoping I can turn to Mumnetters again.
My son is now 5 months old. He is beautiful. He is still EBF (which has felt like a huge achievement for me) and I'm gaining confidence as a mum.
The first 8 weeks after his birth were like living in an actual nightmare. I had post natal anxiety disorder and it's only now starting to level out. I refused to take anti ds. Not because I in anyway disagree with them, just because my anxiety is that bad I couldn't read through the poss side effects without breaking into a cold sweat.
Now the nightmarish phase is over I'm fixated on the thought that I don't love my son enough. I feel it's ruining the joy I should be feeling as a mum. People presume I'm besotted and overwhelmed with love by him but I don't feel that way - I feel so,so guilty that he's not at the forefront of my mind and that I don't seem ecstatically in love which is how friends who have had babies come across.
I've tried to talk to my DH, mum, friends but they all just think I'm over thinking the issue. My mum and MIL talk of thinking of his face 24/7 which is lovely but as his mum why aren't I?
Any thoughts appreciated.
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Mumsnet hasn't checked the qualifications of anyone posting here. If you have medical concerns, please seek medical attention.
Mental health
Worried I don't have the 'right' feelings for my son
4 replies
Ohnoredundo · 03/09/2011 16:54
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.