Hi, I'm a first time poster, so hope I get it right!
My story is briefly this- about two years ago I went through a bit of a bad time- problems at work (and subsequently lost my job), my mum became ill and passed away, various upsets in the family. As a result I suffered a severe bout of depression, was on AD's and felt to have more or less come out the other side of it- I still suffer from anxiety and I just can't seem to get my life back on track (I have no job, feelings of low self esteem, lack of confidence)
I consider the way I am now to be quite normal after what has happened to me, but a few months ago I decided I was getting no further with any recovery on my own and though counselling might help- I think my problem is that I blame myself for the bad things that have happened to me and those around me, and I don't trust my own opinions any more.
I was assessed and placed with a counselor, and for a few sessions things seemed fine, but I've now had about 8 sessions and have to say in all honestly I feel much worse than before I started. I feel it's reaped a lot of bad memories up, but not helped resolve anything. I just feel to be spilling my guts every week, and she dosen't seem to get me- the feedback she gives often seems off the mark and very 'text book' and seems to back up my feelings that even I suspect are overly negative. She has missed a few sessions due to illness and that threw me a bit too- I feel she finds me boring. This week I was saying something about a male friend, basically I was trying to explain that I feel a lot of my friends avoid me because of me having had a breakdown- and part of her response was a comment on the appropriateness of a man talking to me when I am someones partner- which to me completely misses the point I was trying to make, and has made me question a lot of other things that have been said.
I've never had counselling before and don't know whats normal and I feel to have been left floundering when she could have offered more guidance- I feel that I'm getting nothing out of it because I'm doing it wrong. I feel much worse than I did two months ago and would just like to not go again, but I don't know how to get out of it- I haven't got the confidence to say 'you're not helping me, so I want to stop'.
Thankyou for reading such a long post, I'd be very grateful for any advice.
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Having Counselling, But Not Sure It's Helping.
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Catinthebox · 22/08/2011 11:37
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