DS is 8 months, healthy and gorgeous. The majority of the time I just get on with looking after him which is a fairly standard mix of joy, knackeredness and everything in between.
But... If I take a quiet moment to appreciate his general wonderousness, I am immediately struck by a mortal fear of losing him.
Also, if I see a danger, my mind can spiral off on the awful things that could happen (eg yesterday we were near a lake with the buggy and I ended up thinking, what if the buggy rolled in, how would I get the water to get him out, how would I undo the buckles... and eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!)
I can rationalise myself out of these thinking patterns (thanks to cognitive exercises from therapy after miscarriages in the past).
So my question is: Is this normal?
Part of me thinks it might be - people often 'joke' that you find a new level of worry as a mum. And it isn't affecting my behaviour (ie I'm not avoiding lakes, because I know those thoughts were irrational).
But on the other hand, regular intrusions of upsetting irrational thought are unpleasant. So if it is not normal and they're they're conquerable, I'd like to try.
DH just seems enjoy loving DS without that background tinge of fear of loss.
I'd be really interested to know how others feel in this kind of situation.
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is this level of anxiety normal?
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normalshmormal · 29/06/2011 15:33
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