Worst week

[squashycreech]

-rejected from uni
-splitting up with partner, he doesn't want me in the house again
-someone bloody broke into our house AS WE WERE SPLITTING UP

i have not felt this low in a long time. phone is broken so can't phone anyone. can't face work tomorrow.

[madmouse]

Go to a pay phone and phone the person who is nearest to you both emotionally and in terms of distance. Get some support now.

[squashycreech]

There's no one.

[madmouse]

No friends no family? Unlikely. No one who knows how you are feeling - possibly - but that's the bit that has to change.

[squashycreech]

It's too late to call my friends and anyway no one lives near me.

My family and I don't really get on.

[madmouse]

It is not too late to phone friends at all

Stop self destructing and get some support for yourself

[squashycreech]

Thanks for the tough love.

[polarbearkimmie]

what about e-mailing someone like the samaritans: [email protected]
it might take awhile but you will get a reply

[squashycreech]

Maybe. Just want to curl up and not wake up ever again.

[polarbearkimmie]

Ive been feeling like that for a couple of weeks now, it sucks doesnt it.

Are you sleeping ok at the moment, is getting some sleep and a break away from feeling so bad an option?

[squashycreech]

I've been sleeping all the time. I can't seem to stop being tired.

Going to a hotel tomorrow and going to bed early and sleeping and sleeping and sleeping.

[polarbearkimmie]

It works, are you seeing a gp, it sounds like you might need some anti-ds or is this a short term thing?

[squashycreech]

I have taken so many anti depressants and I just don't think it works for me. The problem is my behaviour, I know it is. I am diagnosed with BPD and I act like such a horrible bitch sometimes. All the time really.

My partner can't be with me because of how I treat him. I have made a mess of my life, my career and everything else.

[polarbearkimmie]

BPD, is that borderline personality disorder?

I know what you mean about making a mess of everything ive done pretty much the same...

If you cant take anti-ds them maybe some pychological therapy would work for you?

[madmouse]

You may need mood stabilisers or a specific form of CBT - go talk to your mental health specialist/team