not really sure why I'm starting this thread. Anyway. I've had severe depression and anxiety for 3 years now. I had to quit uni because of it. There were months where I didn't leave the house. I tried to kill myself so many times. it was so awful. half the time Iwasn't inside my own body. A couple of months after it started I went to the doctor once and then couldn't leave the house to get to my other appointments & cbt. so that kinda fizzled out. However this last October I felt loads better. I started an OU course and went back to the doctor and got some meds. Since then I've been on the waiting list for therapy and I finally got some a CBT course starting last week. But I didn't go. I couldn't face it. so the guy spoke to me on the phone. and he was just asking me stupid questions and I don't want to go. So i didn't go today either. my partner is really disappointed in me. he says he stills loves me but i don't really know why.
I have an appointment with my doctor on monday. i really like her. She saved my life. she is really kind and professional and just the best kind of doctor. she had to put in a lot of effort to get me back on the cbt thing (because I had not gone the previous time). and I feel like I am letting her down too. so I am really miserable. :(
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rinabean · 11/02/2011 17:36
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