I am overwhelmed by flashbacks/nightmares, bad thoughts, bad sleep and very sad.
[and horrible self-esteem, but no use going there].
My GP doesn't feel primary care can offer anything, and doesn't feel able to prescribe drugs or talking therapy...says that needs a psychiatrist (said that over a month ago).
They/I know what's wrong with me, and what's triggered it.
But I am scared. Scared of seeing a psychiatrist. Scared even more of seeing a CPN (worked in two tier 4 psych settings, one got on well with nurses, one they thought my profession was a waste of space/ entertainment provision).
It's bad enough the awkward responses and/or assumptions that I'll know what they're talking about in general health, can't face it with this. People find it hard because my profession is seen as thick, but where I work doesn't match that.
And I'm scared of being thrown straight into secondary care (not that I know how it works, but skipping all the GP direct referral services feels bad, and I think she thinks I'm going to top myself as she's been seeing me each week).
And I'm scared of it tearing up my life more.
Why did my GP need to say I'd definitely be seeing the consultant? Is that supposed to be reassuring?
Psych appt is as close to Christmas as it could be.
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Mental health
Don't know how to feel
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snowmash · 01/12/2010 18:49
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