ADs don't make you happy. They adjust a chemical imbalance, if one exists, that might be distorting your mood, and so contribute to conditions in which you might be able to feel positive enough to act and react in such a way that your mood lifts a little bit. They don't create oblivion either. The effects are small and prosaic. It sound like you think them more powerful than they are, and that that is why you hate them.
I take ADs. I'm on a low dose right now but was on a much higher one. I'm on dosulepin, one of the older tricyclic ADs and haven't suffered any side effects.
For me atm they're a lifesaver. They've helped me sleep which was a big problem and although I'm not 'happy' I am less moody and irritable and can get up in the mornings. A lot of things happened to me at once and I had not realised that it was too much and I couldn't cope anymore.
I agree you shouldn't have to take them to cope with problems caused by other people. However at the end of the day, life is stressful and ADs do provide you with a cushion and you are then less annoyed by other people.
Maybe say to yourself 'I'll try them for a bit and see what happens.'
Hi - if you do decide to ask for Ads and want seroxat again, am sure you will get it. Equally if the symptoms of that not suit you there are others like citalopram, escitalopram (newer one) etc... I tried quite a few till I found one I tolerated better.
I'm on anti depressants, been on them now for 7 weeks. I was always irritable, tired (in yet I had trouble going to sleep at night and would wake in the middle of the night and have trouble going back to sleep again), I was always restless and fidgeting, I had trouble concentrating on anything for long, I felt so low, hopeless, tearful and guilty all the time, I had such a lack of motivation, everything was an effort, even washing up. I also had very little appetite and never felt hungry.
After a series of events I started to question whether I had a problem and despite hating the thought of ADs, I went to speak to my GP, who asked me to fill in a questionnaire and we had a chat. She prescribed me 20mg Fluoxetine (sp?) and within about 4 weeks I began to feel like a different person.
For me rather than having extreme lows or highs I'm now feeling stable and calm and it takes a lot more to upset me now, no matter how troublesome my two toddlers are. I'm sleeping better and feeling better all round. So I am a great advocate of ADs now. But when I first got home with them, I almost threw them in the bin.
Google and read up on depression and ADs, speak to your GP, then make a decision. But I am a better parent now than I was and a lot more likeable. I wake in the morning now at peace, rather than a bear with a sore head. That was the big difference for me.