ok, I'm sliding a bit, the dark, the cold, the scared about money, head stones going up soon, christmas is expensive, I need some help and advice please

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

the first thing to go is the kids not going to school
they haven't gone today

erin is not supposed to be at mursery after a doc app on tuesday and she has a horrid cold and being 3 could do with a few days rest was what the doc and I agreed

dd2 is fine

dd1 does have a horrid cold but with som calpol could be at school

I just couldn't face it

leaving the house

driving
the cold
ugh I know I shouldn't have

but how do I stop doing it more

tbh all day every day I feel like I'm drowning and cant cope with doing it all

I wold love if I could pay someone to take and pcik up the girls from school for a coupke of days a week but thats just a pipe dream I'm sure

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

please

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

anyone

[anotherbrickinthewall]

well it's too late for today, but I will come on late evening and chivvy you about getting ?food ?uniform ?bags ready for tomorrow.

probably given these economic times someone would take cash in hand for school run BUT if you are scared about money could you afford it.

the easy bit is Xmas - what is the concern? how many do you feel you have to buy presents for?

[PaulineFouler]

((hugs)) back in a bit bf baby.

[ChickensHaveNoLips]

Aw, Trin :( Today is one day. Tomorrow, set your alarm twenty minutes early. Get yourself up and organised before getting the DC up and ready. Get them to school. That is an achievement. Don't be too hard on yourself. Baby steps, 'k? x

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

well I guess not thst many people

but I always feel bad for not organising somehting for the postman and binmen

I do appreciate what they do but have never shown it

my sis and I have decided not to exchange presents

I want to buy for moonpie, my mum and dad, mil, my close friends.

maybe its more than the expense

the organisation is hell

I have to post to my mum and dad and moonpie and a couple of my friends

the kids all want to send xmas cards to thier friends and I usually forget but I have some already charity cards that give to the alzeimers society

I need to remind dd1 to do them and find out class lists for the other two

[EnnisDelMar]

Are you getting enough sleep?

I tend to feel like everything's too much when I haven't had a decent sleep in ages.

You'll manage, most days. Just sometimes it'll catch up with you. Sounds like it'd have been a difficult journey if only one of the girls is really fit for school.

Try again tomorrow -

regarding Christmas, loads of us are in a difficult financial position so we can all help with ideas.

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

but I just doint want to go out in the world

its horrid
people look at me, judge me, I'm cold

I forget what I'm supposed to do and them get back and have to go out again for messages

I've got a diary and have been successful for a coupke of weeks now but its so fucking hard to keep looking at it all the time, literally hundreds of times a day just to remember what I'm doing

I'm mentally exhausted
I want to stop the world and get off for a bit

[ChickensHaveNoLips]

If possible, do your crimbo shopping online. There are loads of good deals about. Maybe if you tell us what you're after we can track some down for you?

[EnnisDelMar]

Oh I get what you mean with the organising. It's hard work just thinking about it, isn't it.

I got packs of 25 cards from the corner shop for a pound - have got a few spare cards from last year too, so DS has plenty for his class. Not sure how you get a class list - do you have a class photo? I always get stuck at about 23!

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

I haven't had eb=nough sleep for 5 and a hlaf years

I'm not surprised that they have outlawed sleep deprivation as a form of torture

[ASecretLemonadeDrinker]

babysteps. x Can you get everything ready tonight? All shoes, clothes, socks, your clothes etc. Just take it one child at a time. Whereabouts are you, I think it's north isn't it? Reward yourself for doing it - I struggle alot, twice I nearly didn't take DS but ended up taking him about 20 mins late. Can you take them now for the rest of the afternoon?

[anotherbrickinthewall]

can you not cheat a bit and use reputable online companies - M & S/Amazon/HMV etc for the pressies to save you the postage. postman/binman - box of chocs at whichever supermarket has tins on offer, or failing that just bung em a fiver.

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

I can ask the teachers for class lists but I have to remember to do it and then I have to not lose them

I am so shit its laughable really, noone realises how shit
I try not to be all the time but I'm sure there is something wrong with me

my memory is non existent

[EnnisDelMar]

I feel like that too, Trin.

Most days I don't get the shopping, don't walk anywhere, JUST the school run in the car and make sure the pets are fed and the kids have something basic.

That's it,

I don't do meals or proper dinner or anything.

I have come to the conclusion that the world is best avoided.

Work out the basic minimum and just do that.

[anotherbrickinthewall]

have you had your GP do bloods recently, in case thyroid/anaemia could be a factor in feeling tired/more forgetful than normal?

mind you I've really felt the change in hour and had problems with my short term memory this week, think there is definitely something to this SAD thing unfortunately!

[PaulineFouler]

Ok could you spend today sorting uniforms and bags for tomorrow so you are not rushing in the morning.

Forget about today my DS had 3 days off last week because he was a bit rundown the way I see it is we all need a duvet day now and again.

Could you ask a parent at school to do the school run for your girls a couple of days a week? I am paying someone 20.00 a week to drop my dd off at home every night from next week.

Christmas -Amazon have a lot of deals especially from next week and it will all be delivered so no having to go out in the cold I know you are worried about money but there are some amazing deals around at the moment.

Just remember it dosen't matter how much you spend at Christmas you will make it magical because you are an amazing Mum.

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

I totally agree with you itsonlyajob

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

nope not had bloods done recently but I've always been like this

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

ok moonpie - a really cool, unusual toy, shes 6 months, I have to post it or get it delovered straight from somewhere

mum - she cant smell anything, not sure what to buy her

dad - really no idea but somehting unusual and fun

close friends erm

5 of them all female, something with love, doesn;t need ot be expensive

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

already panicking because I just dont know

I think I've got my girls sorted so thats good but would loke to have them wrapped and hidden to feel relaxed about it

we are chopping down the tree that neil planted a few years ago

we have had logs delivered, dad leant me some money so we are warm and I'm trying not to turn the heating on till its below freezing

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

actuall I lie, I have the heating on for two hours every morning before we get up to take the chill off and then we light the fire

but its bloody cold and draughty and if money was no issue it would be on all day

[TrinityTheTwattyRhino]

I'll shut up now

[Scootergrrrl]

When is the headstone going up? That's bound to make you wobbly and Christmas is a rough time for anyone who's lost someone they love like you have.

Definitely second Amazon for pressies - they'll send them for you!