Yesterday, after 14 months of counselling, which was going quite well, I suddenly had a memory which BOOM pieced all of the thoughts together. It was like all of the jumbled chaotic thoughts and memories suddenly lined themselves up and I realised that my fear of all of these memories were completely justified.
After that I spent the next 13 hours reliving the event which was so traumatic for me.
It was frightening but exhilerating and I just kept saying WOW! That's it, now I know.
Now, I am up again at 4am in tears over it, the memories are all spilling over, again and again.
It is scary but necessary I think.
I have never had an experience like yesterday. Incredible.
Anyone else had this kind of sudden knowledge and complete crystal clear understanding?
The only thing is that now, I have reliving stuff for so many hours, I am exhausted but can't switch it off. Yesterday I spent all day in the past, I couldn't hear what people were saying, couldn't take anything in. Surreal.
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Just discovered how powerful counselling can be
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midnightblues · 21/10/2010 05:20
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