I thought I was feeling better

[ladymarian]

I have just come back from a night away with my sister who I don't see particularly often and she phoned me tonight to say she was worried about me - she thinks I seem quite low, anxious and not myself. I am on citalopram for PND and PTSD from DD's birth. My DD is nearly 3 so part of me does think I should be over it now but I wasn't diagnosed until she was 15 months old. I had counselling for a few months last summer too.

I have been on citalopram for nearly 18 months with a few ups and downs but lately I thought I was feeling much better so I was shocked by what my sister said. I was touched that she cared enough to phone me but I'm worried that I am getting depressed again without realising it.

Is this possible? Has anyone else experienced this?

PS thanks for reading, sorry its a bit long!

[bnm]

No experience sorry but wonder if it is possible that because you don't see your sister much it was more of an eyeopener for her than a case of you not doing well? Sorry probably not put that clearly.

[madmouse]

It depends on how much your sister has actually engaged with your illness and how well she knows you. I have two friends who know me well enough that they can see I'm having a bad time if I'm pretending to myself that I'm ok (I used to close myself off from emotions and pretend life was fine and didn't hurt at all - I had PTSD following child abuse issues) - they would say things like 'don't pull the shutters down Madmouse, please'.

But if you are confident in yourself that you are getting there - dare and be brave enough to trust yourself!

[ladymarian]

Thanks for your messages - much appreciated.

My sister doesn't have children of her own but we are quite close.

[bnm]

Just one thought - if you think you are feeling better chances are you are aren't you? Otherwise you would know in your self wouldn't you.