Abortion decision please help

[Kios]

Ok here's my story, I've just found out I'm pregnant, first day of last period was aug 10th so that makes me very early, the featus has only been in me for 2 weeks. I've split with the babies dad and I don't want to be tied to him. I also have a 3 yr old son to a man I am friends with and my child sees and things are going well. The major issue is I'm disabled I have a rare genetic disorder. My first pregnancy brought on my disability. Some days I can't walk other days I'm fine. I was told by my specialist that another child would make me 25% worse as hormones make it worse. This upset me as I want more children, she said I need to tone all muscle for years before carrying another child so I was in the process of helping myself and having another baby in the future which I was happy about. Now I find myself pregnant and already my body is hurting due to hormones. This will put me in a wheelchair and I don't know if I'll ever recover as my body isn't ready for it. I'm not mentally ready to be a single mother to two children either. Once I have this child I won't be able to run an play with my child that's already here and I need to think of him too.
My problem is I don't know whether I can have an abortion as I'm already a mum and love my child more then anything. I'm really confused and lonely and don't know what to do, please help me.

[OddSocksHighHeels]

Oh I'm so sorry to hear that. It's a really difficult decision to make and one that only you can make.

Many women who are already mothers choose to terminate, it doesn't mean they love their existing DC any less. Please don't feel guilty if you do decide to end the pregnancy, you have to look at what is best for you and your existing family in the circumstances.

I recommend seeing your GP or FPC and getting a referral for the counselling that is offered to women thinking of terminating. They can help advise you and assist you in coming to a decision. Alternatively, BPAS or Marie Stopes also offer counselling. They're completely impartial and will really help you work through your feelings.

I hope you're doing ok and a big hug.

[annemariehawley]

Hi, I'm really sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. There is a national helpline run by a charity that a friend of mine contacted and they were really helpful. The number is 0808 802 5433. and they have a text to talk service, text LIFECARE to 88020. Hope you get on ok.