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I went through redundancy 7 yrs ago, it was my first 'proper' job as it were after university. Looking back, they'd made their mind up and lined up their ducks pretty obviously, I was just too young to recognise it. It was a mass redundancy situation so wasn't targeted personally as it were.
I've since had other jobs, 2/3yr stints here and there.
I've not had fantastic experiences, I'm quite job insecure. Maybe as a result of the redundancy? I've always moved on as a result of my own choices since.
I very much want to be settled but I'm wondering if I've developed an issue MH wise which is stopping me from relaxing into a role?
Whenever a decision is made I automatically think it's about me and how rubbish I am. I get very very tearful about it and think it's work 'lining up ducks' as it were to push me out.
I'm not amazing at my role but good enough, I'm an average worker. In some ways I'm more than average I think, but it's never recognised.
I joined my current place 2yrs ago or so, I had a very negative performance review in the first year, it annoyed me massively as it was quite unfair and made an issue out of something which isn't an issue and my manager (who did the review) actually does far worse! I had a health issue that same year... And using that as justification my work has changed, almost like a demotion but not really... Then my manager got quite angry with me over a very trivial point and it pulled apart our relationship, if there ever was one to start with. I try to bond, make jokes etc, but they're like a brick wall. Anyway, with the this lockdown it's not helped matters. I've been sidelined massively, everyone else doing X whilst I do Y... I'm not being used to my full potential yet someone's been asked to work more hours. This has upset me as due to past experiences my head is telling me ducks are being lined up again. Am I being paranoid?
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Is it an MH issue due to experiences?
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GreyWall · 11/06/2020 12:00
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