Hi I'm looking for some advice.
I have suffered from depression/anxiety for most of my life and have learned to cope with it without medication now. Mostly I'm OK.
I'm a single parent and currently work full time but my job has become so stressful it's affecting my health. Last year I had to take 2 weeks off with panic attacks and was put on medication but I was back on track fairly quickly and off the meds within a couple of months. (I hate being on meds)
Things have got worse again though and I've just had a run in with my line manager and I really can't cope with the job anymore. There have been a lot of changes in the company recently and new higher management staff and there are now new targets and procedures that have made the job a lot more stressful. In fact staff were recently sacked for not following (new) correct procedures, I can't say what they were but it was something quite trivial. This recent run in with my LM has really affected me, he wasn't happy about an email I sent questioning some comments/changes he had requested in my dept, which I sent because I was out of the office the day he visited and only heard about these things second hand (no communication from him to me).
Anyway I have applied for a couple of other jobs but my anxiety has flared up and (this will sound ridiculous) last night I actually thought I was having a heart attack! My heart was racing, palpitations, I was so tired I couldn't lift my arms, felt sick, aching jaw and then my left arm went numb which freaked me out. I know it's most likely a panic attack (this morning my pulse was 118 bpm) and I'm due back in work tomorrow. The thought of leaving and going to interviews/starting a new job is filling me with dread. My confidence is so low and I feel so awful I just can't face a new job right now.
So I'm looking at giving up work completely. I've been working since I was 15 so it's not something I have ever done before but I've never felt this bad before either. The problem is I wouldn't want to claim jobseekers so I would be surviving on ctc and child benefit alone. This works out at about £150 a week. Am I being stupid considering this and has anyone else done the same?
(Sorry if this comes across as self pitying!)
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HollyMclean · 17/04/2017 13:39
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