Not sure what to do. Apply or leave it

[Bimbop5]

I'm going to have to make a decision, most likely next week, whether or not to apply for a job. I will most likely get it due to seniority. But I'm currently working as a casual. The job is for part time. I had this job before but resigned due to my health. I only had the job under a year but have worked as a casual for almost 10 years. There is always work. Still I get paranoid one day I'll be screwed as work will die off due to cut backs. On the other hand committing to a set schedule freaks me out because I still have problems staying healthy and sometimes it's just less stressful to know if I get sick I can stay home and not stress about missing work or letting the team down.

My husband thinks I should leave things as they are and not apply. I really like my job and would like to have secured hours but at the same time it scares me to have that commitment.

I really don't know what I hope to accomplish by writing this down. Perhaps, more clarity.

My mom thinks I should apply as working is good for my mental health and that I can always back out. I'm worried that will look bad. I'm also wondering if they'll not want me as I had the job before and then resigned. Although one of the managers said they would be glad to have me back. I'm a hard worker.

I feel sick about either of the decisions. Everyone at work expects me to apply. I'm worried I'll regret it if I don't. But worried I'll regret it if I do. :(

[thepetitpear]

Ok, so let's look at both scenarios.

You don't apply and carry on as you are. Yes, you may regret it for a short while and I'm sure another opportunity will come up again and if it does, at least the next time you know that you should definitely go for it.

Lets say you apply and get offered it. You could still turn it down if it doesn't feel right? Or maybe even giving it a go as a trial could be an option to see how you get on? They sound very supportive of your circumstances.

[Bimbop5]

Thanks, thepetitpear, that was helpful what you wrote and makes sense. I also, did a pro/ con list and I realized it's better to stay as I am at this point, as a casual. I feel really good about my decision. When I thought about applying I had that feeling of dread in my stomach so that's a good indication of which direction to turn.

Thanks again!

[thepetitpear]

I'm glad you've been able to make a decision that you're happy with.

[Lilaclily]

Can you say what industry your in op ? I think as you're dp is happy with you being casual I'd leave it for now