This week I started a new job this week and feeling really mixed about things. I can't say it was a really bad week but I just feel so overwhelmed. The job is quite a step up and a move into management compared to my previous job. I feel so daunted and I'm panicking that I'm never going to understand it all and know what I'm doing. Most of this week has been meeting people but not much actual focus on what I'm going to be doing day to day. I know it's going to be quite a high pressure role and I'm really worried that I'm not going to be good at it, that I'm not clever enough and that basically out of my depth. I'm also really missing my previous team and feel quite lonely. I hate that feeling of people new and knowing nothing.
I was once bullied badly by a previous boss and ended up very ill and suffering anxiety. I then got back into work in my previous job and loved it but unfortunately I was struggling financially and also wanted to progress and there was no opportunity to do that in my previous job hence the new job. I wonder if the whole new job situation has just triggered my anxiety. I would love to hear about people's experiences of starting a new job - particularly anyone who was really unsure at first and now loves their job which would give me a bit of hope that this will pass.