Sorry in advance that this is so long.
I feel so stuck. I hate my job. I am an EA. It is stressful and demanding and not very rewarding. There is little hope for career progression - not because my boss is unsupportive, in fact he encourages me to 'do more' - but because there just isn't enough time in the day. I am often late in the office or working at the weekend. If I don't, my workload builds up even more and I am more stressed than ever.
When I raised this unreasonable workload I was told to manage my time better and HR suggested time management courses. I don't think I need time management courses, I need to be given a reasonable amount of work. I keep a record of everything I do but some senior execs are of the opinion that a 'good PA should be able to keep on top of this amount of work' - I am now questioning myself an having a crisis of confidence and my abilities and skills. I feel stupid and stressed and unhappy and feel sick on Sundays because I don't want to go back in on Monday.
So I have been applying for other roles since Christmas. I applied for 23 jobs over the Christmas period but to no avail. I tried to keep this up as I went back to work but I am exhausted at the end of the day and struggle to write cover letters. I'm tired and just want to sleep, so the volume has trickled down to c. 4 jobs per week, and again, not even an interview. I live in London so it's unbelievable that I can't find anything. I start to wonder whether I am just unemployable.
I am exhausted by everything and have stupid thoughts as to how to cope - I sometimes think that if I get hit by a bus on my way to work then I'll get time off. I am even considering, in fits of madness, having baby so that I could go on maternity leave and gather my scattered self.
I just feel so depressed and demotivated, like I'll never find another job and I will be trapped here forever. I met with recruiters, but that didn't go anywhere really. They had a few jobs I was put forward for but I wasn't selected to interview.
I don't want to resign without a job lined up because I'm scared that it will take me ages to find a job and I'll eat into my savings too much.
WWYD in my situation? I would love some perspective because I feel like I am going mad.
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I hate my job and feel hopelessly trapped. WWYD?
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HootOnTheBeach · 24/01/2016 13:25
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