would you leave this job?

[Arohaitis]

So I have been persuaded to take a job, contract is 400 hours over 1 year (it might be renewed since there is no one else to do it I also intend to move from this town towards the end of this year) the job is connected to my previous career but only peripherally.

My child is due to start school in September and there is much sadness around the fact that it looks like I will not be having another, I feel this time with them is so very precious.

So far the job is a nightmare, it is an enormous amount of work I am doing 2 full days a week plus more at home, I said to my husband today I thought I needed to put dc in nursery another day a week so that I can do the job without working all night the night before too (currently goes 2, I would prob prefer none but they enjoy it so I can go with it) It hangs over me the whole time I am not there, it stresses me doing it I feel used and manipulated (long story I didn't apply because I didn't want it then got persuaded to accept it because it was too 'late' to find someone else). I also don't feel like I am doing a good job of it.

It feels to me like there is no future in it and I am loosing too much to do something I hate. The pay is poor (would probably be cancelled out by an extra day at nursery!) and there are no associated benefits (pension etc)

so would you leave? am I just being self-indulgent?

I realise this makes me sound very high maintenance and full of my own self importance the job is quite niche and I live in a small town so there are not many other people out there who can do it right now.

[Arohaitis]

I doubt I can do much to the pay for various reasons.

writing it all down does make it look silly continuing

thanks

[Polkadotpatty]

Unless you enjoy it and/or it's giving you other benefits (essential income, valuable experience / associated training / good contacts), it doesn't sound especially tempting to stay!
If it was something you felt was important, and you were getting paid for the (double) days you're working, then I guess you could continue until the funding ran out. 400 hours in a year is roughly one day per week as I'm sure you know. If you're getting paid for the 2-3 days per week, they would need to review the scope/budget after 6 months when the money ran out...
There seems to be a clear case for reviewing the scope of the post and the allocated paid hours, regardless of whether or not you personally decide it's a good option for you.
Do remember that unmanageable workloads are just that: unmanageable. It is very unlikely that you're doing a bad job of it, and far more likely that you're trying to keep up your high standards in an impossible situation. Try not to let it affect your confidence in your abilities - it sounds like this is the situation, not you!