What to do when you HATE your job?

[CestelloAnnunciation]

Excuse my self-indulgent whinge. Just feel so utterly trapped and bored and pissed off at work.

I was working part-time for several years in jobs that paid peanuts and were way below my capabilities (although still in the sector I want to work in), just to be able to manage childcare responsibilities etc.

I went back to full-time work nearly a year ago (although TTO) in a role as middle manager. I hate it. I hate working full time. I don't see enough of my kids mnd feel constantly stressed and harassed. My organisation is in a state of flux, very insecure atmosphere where everyone is worried about their jobs. Managers are unprofessional, gossipy, have vendettas against members of staff for pathetic reasons (I am not in the firing line at the moment, but who knows when that might change). its just all so wearing.

I search every day for something else. Something with fewer hours, but that wont mean taking a huge pay cut or going back in to a 'mum' job that doesnt utilise my wealth of experience and skills.

I know I am not alone. I know nothing is perfect. But God, i am so fed up of this shit.

[scottishmummy]

Gosh,that's a Lot going on.clearly making you unhappy
Ok,so you get a plan.and you plan a managed exit on your terms As opposed to a forced exit

Look other comparable roles internally, is a sideways move possible
Maybe you don't need less hours?just a change
You will need it compromise. a stimulating role may not offers hours you need
Yes you've got skills so maximise your cv and the abilities and give clear demonstrable examples

Can you be a locum or temp in your field?is that option

I'd try get ft and see how that goes

[CestelloAnnunciation]

Thanks so much for your reply, scottishmummy.

I definitely want to make a considered, managed exit and not throw my toys out of the pram and sabotage myself. So having to be sensible (arghh).

There is a recruitment freeze here at the moment, so no more roles coming up in the near future at least.

I battle constantly with thinking 'if I had a job I enjoyed more, or with a better atmosphere, would i be OK with working full time?@. I think the answer is no, though, ultimately. I'd kill for a good, management level job share, but they are like gold dust in my sector (or most sectors, i would imagine).

I've temped in my field before and, in fact, made a reasonable go at being a self employed consultant, but bottom line? there just wasnt enough business out there to justify my freelancing.

Gah. Sorry for sounding so negative. I cried all the way home yesterday and woke up in a foul mood today. Something has got to change.

[PassAFist]

I sympathise OP. I also hate my job and have been on a "program" of my own creation to plan an exit sometime this year. In my case, I ended up re-training in a completely different area. That training will be coming to an end soon and then I hope to open my own business - sick of working for other people! I know how soul-destroying it is to have a job that you despise and that you are trapped in for whatever reason. I am trapped by finances but we are going to try and sell our house so that I can switch jobs, I think my husband has finally realized how absolutely desperate I feel.

I am currently keeping my head out of the line of fire down and not causing any waves, just dreaming of the day I can tell them to take their job and shove it!

[scottishmummy]

Oh gosh it's dreadful to feel burdened by work.hmm what to do
Recruitment freeze,wil that affect secondments,or transfers?Anyone you can trust as a mentor?
ultimately yes you need to be happy and content,and if pt gives you that balance Pursure it