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My beautiful, precious Nan

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PrincessPee Sat 22-Dec-18 00:22:57

Don’t know what to say really, I just need to say something.
We lost my Nan last week. We thought were going to have one more Christmas and she was enjoying writing her cards and making plans. I’m absolutely heatbroken that I won’t hear her voice or see her again x

FadedRed Sat 22-Dec-18 00:26:33

flowers So sorry for your loss, PrincessPee.
And somehow it always seems worse, if it can feel worse, at this time of the year.

PrincessPee Sat 22-Dec-18 00:53:52

Thank you.
I haven’t felt pain like it before and can’t imagine how we are going to ‘do’ Christmas and beyond. I find myself getting excited at the prospect of spending time as a family at their house (something we are doing this year but haven’t done in recent years) and get flash backs to the lovely Christmases of my childhood and then I remember that a huge part will be missing. It hurts so much. She was so incredibly special.

PrincessPee Sat 22-Dec-18 23:52:49

I really really miss her.

DramaAlpaca Sat 22-Dec-18 23:57:35

Oh I'm sorry flowers

I lost my beloved grandad almost thirty years ago just a few days before Christmas & it was so hard. I still remember.

And I still miss my very special grandmother too, she was the most amazing woman I've ever had the privilege to know. So I understand how you feel.

I'm sorry for your loss <hugs>

PrincessPee Thu 27-Dec-18 00:04:44

@Drama Grandparents really are the best blessing. It’s been so hard today, I kept thinking she would just appear. We have done her proud and I love her all the world. It’s just so odd. Been thinking to all my childhood christmases when I wouldn’t go home with my parents after Boxing Day, is just stay at my grandparents for the next few days. Sorry just an incoherent emotional rambling. Love her and miss her so much x

PrincessPee Wed 02-Jan-19 10:30:46

It’s been too long now since I’ve heard her voice.

PrincessPee Mon 14-Jan-19 22:44:14

This really hurts. I really really need someone to talk to. Only wish it was her x

PrincessPee Wed 23-Jan-19 13:22:18

I’m just using this thread now as somewhere to talk and think.

Here we are, at almost 6 weeks Nan. Still wish you were here and I could see you and talk to you, ring you and cuddle you. You really were the most precious thing, I’m so privileged to have had you in my life and childhood, so many special memories.
I’d give anything to tell you in person. Missing you so much flowers xxxx

PrincessPee Wed 23-Jan-19 13:35:11

I loved being your granddaughter - I’ve been so lucky and blessed. So special.

PrincessPee Mon 28-Jan-19 10:22:49

It’s so hard without you Nan. It feels like it’s getting harder as it’s longer since I saw you x it’s the longest it’s ever been since I spoke to you. You weren’t ready yet xxxxxx I love you forever xxxxxx

PrincessPee Tue 29-Jan-19 17:41:28

Watching the snow fall today, I’ve thought of you. White Christmases in my childhood, talks of soup and putting the fire on, your birthday, even last Winter. Last winter you felt well. I think I took it for granted that you felt well, thinking you were invincible, that you’d always be there, despite the challenges you faced. Oh Nan xxxxxx

iklboo Tue 29-Jan-19 17:49:27

So sorry for your loss @PrincessPee. It's so hard. I lost my nan over 30 years ago and still miss her.

Have you thought about writing a blog or journal to write down all your precious memories about you time with her. You could share with with your children when they're older. Especially if you have some nice photos of her. You can read it yourself when you want to be close to her.

DiaryofWimpyMumm Wed 30-Jan-19 15:45:27

So sorry for your loss. I lost my nan 5 years ago and still miss her. thanks

PrincessPee Mon 04-Feb-19 03:47:01

Thank you both! I think about her every single day. I’m fine when I’m busy or at work, but find quiet time the hardest. I want to be able to talk about her more, and her death, so I think I’m going to try and sort some bereavement counselling too. Sorry for your losses too flowers xxx

PrincessPee Mon 25-Feb-19 00:26:28

Nan. I want to bring you back so very much. I’m starting to see signs of spring now and the joy that it brings. I wish I could share it with you. Lunch on the patio, barbecues, walks and laughter. Oh Nan, I so wish you you were here. I close my eyes and I see you, I hear you. Such beautiful beautiful memories. We weren’t ready to lose you. Oh Nan. I love you xxxx

PrincessPee Mon 25-Feb-19 00:27:11

I’m a bit empty without you.

HeronLanyon Mon 25-Feb-19 00:33:55

Hi princess - so sorry. It is really tough. I lost my lovely old ma before Christmas (I am not your mother!) and it is hard. I had a few days of hating it getting lighter cos I just kept thinking ‘mum’s not here to enjoy it. Just thnesenlastnfew days that’s changed and I’m finding it helpful that I can see life going on and the seasons changing. Feels like coming out of a dark tunnel of awful times a bit. One day at a time. Counselling might well help. Take care. Lovely to read how much you loved her. flowers

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