Sadly I have similar feelings, Theas. I've been feeling pretty gloomy today, rather than having my old new year optimism that I had for 2014. Mum's diagnosis in the summer, and all the challenges and problems it's brought with it, are dragging me down. Can't help thinking about the fact that this is likely to be her last year
Just happened to stumble across this thread... I've had a roller coaster of a year! March-surprise pregnancy(3rd kid!) April-dad diagnosed with kidney cancer!! June-dad has kidney and tumour removed but cancer has spread to lungs! He continues to smoke like a chimney March to October-worst pregnancy then baby arrives 10 weeks early October-baby spends 5 weeks in Scbu, no health concerns whatsoever Home for 6 days then ends up in intensive care for a fortnight with bronchiolitis! Most worrying time of my life All the while my poor dad is suffering terribly with side effects of the cancer treatment which isn't going to cure it but slow it down/shrink it(which it has) 2014 was a good year in that we were blessed with a beautiful little boy. I honestly don't know what the hell 2015 will bring?! Will dad deteriorate? Will he just continue to feel awful, depressed and unhappy? I am an only child with 3 kids of my own! There's only do much I can do for him and I hate myself for not being there more for him. He literally only has me. No idea if this was even relevant to this thread but I feel better for getting all that off my chest. Thank you Good luck to you for 2015
loveallmyboys Your comments are absolutely relevant to the thread. That's a total rollercoaster and I can so identify with the guilt you feel being pulled in all directions. I'm not an only child but as my sister has removed herself to live a very comfortable SAHM expat life in Spain im here to deal with all the crap - yes I resent her deeply for it at the moment. I didn't even get a decent holiday this year.
Pingpong and CMOT sorry you are in similar gloomy territory.
Now feeling guilty that it's taken a " tell me the good things about your teens" thread to make a little " Pollyanna " blessings counting list - and the kids are amazing really, I just haven't been able to see it so well in 2014.