I developed anorexia age 15, now approaching 35 and while the illness is not what it was back then, it is still a total nightmare EVERY SINGLE DAY.
Age 15-25 I had numerous inpatient stays, daypatient treatment, several sets of CBT, advice from a dietician, we tried to have family therapy (useless, my parents consider 'just eat more' to be the solution) etc etc. It all helped to some extent, ie I am alive, I have a job, I have two children and a wonderful loving husband but I still have anorexia.
Currently, and for several years since having my kids, I've been at BMI 16, exercise for an hour daily (thankfully my job/the kids prevent me from doing more) and am very restrictive in my eating patterns. I don't lose weight - even on small food intake and with lots of cardio - which my husband just considers a blessing. However I have bouts of moderate depression, lack energy, find the kids hard to manage, feel guilty whenever I eat, avoid social occasions (the food, too tired), look a mess and am generally a rubbish mum/wife.
Problem is that the times I have gained weight to BMI 18-20 I have felt fat and disgusting. I've been at that weight for a couple of years max before losing it all again and been miserable. I coped okay with pregnancy as I knew breastfeeding would drop the weight off.
The local NHS eating disorder services won't see me because I am too stable (ie weight not critical and no longer purge) and they wrote back to my GP saying - 'she has had lots of treatment here already'. They may mean they can't offer anything different or new.
My GP - who is very sweet but can't really do anything for me - recommended looking for an experience private psychotherapist, and to try a therapy other than CBT. We can afford it, so I'm thinking about it.
Any words of advice from anyone out there?
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dairymilkmonster · 22/01/2018 16:14
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