I've suffered every eating disorder going over the past 15 years (primarily bulimia with excessive exercise) and pre-pregnancy (16 weeks now) I'd got myself into a really good place. Eating sensibly, and healthily, enjoying food and had found an exercise that I really enjoyed (weight lifting) rather than running 10 miles to burn calories. I also looked good, fit and toned.
In my first 16 weeks (found out at 4) I have been starving and nauseous in equal measures and as a result I've gained a massive amount of weight (approx 1-1.5 stone) and I feel revolting. I'm finding myself creeping back into my old mindset, and am planning my diets for after the birth and am creeping back towards binge eating (no purging).
I'm so happy to be pregnanct (2 years ttc) and I should feel over the moon but I just feel embarrassed of my size and generally disgusting in myself. Wearing massive clothes to hide my body and not wanting my husband to touch me. I can't go on like this for the next 24 weeks and I'm also scared of what will happen post pregnancy when my body is mine again.
Anyone been in or in a similar position and can offer some words of support? Harsh if needs be, I need to nip this in the bud now before it gets out of hand but I feel hopeless.
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Eating disorders
Pregnancy and disordered eating behaviours
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Maddymint · 16/01/2018 15:57
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