Can anyone relate to my anorexia

[Pancake2015]

I have had low weight since i was a baby.
I have been on and off fortisips all of my life.
As an adult, i have learned about my triggers.
I have chronic anxiety and i find my anxiety affects my appetite. When im not so anxious (which is rare), i will be able to eat perfectly fine.
When my anxiety is heightened (almost always), i will lose my appetite and not eat properly.

I have no issues with what i eat, i am not really a picky eater. Though i do have times where im 'hooked' on a specific thing and will go days/weeks only eating that.
I do not count calories. I do not think i am overweight. I know i am underweight and im not happy about it. I would prefer to be in the healthy zone. I just find this an impossible place to get to!

I have had all kinds of treatments for my anxiety.

[Fauchelevent]

My ED is slightly different in how it operates and such but I'm also fighting right now with no real place for support so I'm here for you.

It is really tough when you just want health but you can't let go of your illness :(

[Pancake2015]

Its awful isnt it. When you know what you can do, but cant seem to do it. No matter how hard you try.
I just find obstacles are forever being thrown my way.
I hope you are feeling better soon

[OddSocksHighHeels]

I'm fairly similar. I'm anorexic and it's worse with depression and anxiety. My anxiety has been so much better these last couple of months (for the most part) and I'm eating far better as a result.

I'm also aware of the fact that I'm underweight and I hate how I look. I look back at pictures of how I looked before it really got bad and I had such a lovely figure. I really wish I could get that back.

It's tough and it's so misunderstood and there's nowhere near enough help out there.

[User543212345]

Another anxiety related anorexic signing in. If I remove the anxiety I can eat without worry or drama. When I get anxious the pool of foods I can eat shrinks and so do I.

I'm in treatment at the moment for anorexia but think until we unravel the anxiety - which is crippling at times - the best I'll ever be is semi recovered.

[Mumwithdilemmas]

I totally understand all this. When I fell pregnant with our son neatly 4 years ago I was really quite I'll with anorexia (to this day I don't know how I conceived). I really struggled the whole time. As soon as he was born I was ill again I lost my baby weight in 2 weeks. We then conceived our daughter 10 months later again huge issue.

I'm still fighting it & find anxiety sets me off, st the moment my weight is dropping like a lead balloon but we moved house in October, moved my fiancé's dad in with Parkinson's & dementia as well as two under 4's. I become strict with food for evetyone , all bread & cake have to homemade to eliminate sugar etc.

[groundhogday79]

Hi all. New here and only really just accepting this myself.

I stop eating when I feel like my personal life is out of control. I've always lost my appetite when stressed but this seems different, like I am consciously turning off a hungry switch. I will generally have one meal a day, dinner, as I can hide the skipping breakfast and lunch.

[kateandme]

This may not be anorexia that does have the weight,need to lose,seeing dismorphed figure,but a terrible anxiety related eating disorders which u might get more help fr.as perhaps someone can really help with triggers techniques and reaolly dig into anxiety and depressions which lead to the horrible food outcome.
Be really gentle,kind to yourself.keep going fr help.dnt give up.your worth fighting this.

[Tanners1989]

I'm am exactly like you! When I'm sad, angry or worried I can't eat! I know I should be eating but I just can't eat sometimes makes me feel sick to eat! I am 27 three kids 5ft 2 and classed on the spectrum as under weight for my height been through so many hospitals never made me put on weight. Then I did gym and protein shakes and started to put on weight now I'm in a rut and keep getting these flus and sick bugs I've lost loads of weight and hate the way I look but getting back into exercising is a killer for me and it's not like I start eating and gain weight easily I can eat more than my partner some times and won't gain hardly anything compared to him! Not alone