I've been nannying for a while now but have been with my current two families for about nine months and I love them. I left a very difficult job with a controlling mother and feel like I've been really lucky to find such warm, accepting people. I care very much about these children and want the best for them. I also have great respect for the parents who clearly work very hard to give their children the love and attention they need.
I have been suffering with bulimia/disordered eating for the last nine years. Whilst the severity comes in waves, bulimia has been a strong fixture in my life and I am still very much controlled by it. This being said, I do not exhibit any behaviour that indicates I have a problem when the children are under my care, nor have I disclosed my eating disorder to my employers (who coincidentally are both doctors). However, one of the children in my care has been showing signs of OCD around food. I immediately picked up on it because I do exactly the same things. When informing the mother, I did admit to my own eating rituals and advised her to nip it in the bud if possible, using myself as an example of how it can continue long term. Following this, she mentioned the link between food rituals and eating disorders and how she wouldn't want her daughter to develop one. I would not rule out the possibility that she believes I have an eating disorder, given that she is a doctor and knows about my odd habits. She has made jesting comments about my eating since then. For example: 'help yourself... if there is anything you can actually eat' or 'how are you even alive?' and other similar things. I haven't taken any of this to be rude or accusatory - that is just her way. She has no reason to doubt my commitment to her children and we are completely on the same page when it comes to childcare. But I am growing increasingly concerned that by working with them whilst suffering with an eating disorder is inconsiderate of me, particularly given their daughter's relationship with food. Currently she eats very well but in her ordered way. I avoid eating in front of them so as not to influence her though this little girl is incredibly perceptive and she has already picked up on little things I do. Am I doing the wrong thing by continuing to work? Should I have disclosed to the mother my issues with food? But then I wonder if she already knows anyway. I don't really know what the right thing to do is but I know I have a strong connection to the kids and I want what is best.
The other family don't know about my eating. The mother is on a diet and often has scales about that sometimes ended up in the kitchen. I did once mention that scales in a kitchen made me uncomfortable and they have never been there again since and it was not an issue. I am pretty sure things are okay there and the children won't pick up any bad habits from me. Were I to leave this job, it would complicate things as I also work part time at the nursery her son attends. Due to the nature of their work, both mothers do come across each other from time to time and also my own partner does too. If something happened and I left one of my positions, it could potentially affect my others and make things awkward between people. I really don't want to leave any of them. My work with children makes me happy and I am furthest from my bulimic thoughts when I am with them. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I apologise for the length of this - I needed to get across the full picture, which is complex. Please, if anyone can shed any light on my predicament, please do try. I would really like to hear from other mothers about how they would feel and what others in my shoes might do. Thanks for the time reading if you made it!
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Eating disorders
Nanny with an eating disorder.
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Ninny8 · 16/06/2015 00:36
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