After over a year of lying, deceiving and making me out to be a crazy, paranoid psycho it's out there and much as deep down I knew, it wasn't until he admitted it.
Now I just can't get the thought of them together out of my head, that they are happy, laughing at me and will have a great life ahead while I will be sad and lonely.
That I have just been replaced like a commodity after 20 years of marriage. That they are doing what we used to do together. That she has stolen my life.
She's younger than me so I also now feel old, ugly and unwanted and up until this I quite liked me.
I hate it now when he rings the DC from her house in the evening, hate the fact she might be listening to calls that have naff all to do with her. Hate the thought that she might get involved in their lives.
I have lots of support, I have hD lots of counselling throughout the hell he has put me through and have more booked.
I have adjusted and can cope better with other things but not this. The anger and rage I have for him and for her is just eating me up.
I know I need to stop thinking about them, to stop caring but I'm finding it so hard.
They both cheated and lied, I just want it to all go horribly wrong for them now reality kicks in, not because I want him back but because I'm suffering and I want them to as well.
Before all this I was a normal, rational human being with minimal hate for anyone.
I hate what's its done to me as well, but I think a year of emotional stress has taken its toll.
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VivaVegas · 05/09/2019 16:28
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