Hi
My husband walked out a week ago, after firstly leaving in January for a few days but advising he didn’t know what he was doing and coming home .
He waited for me to go to bed and woke me up to tell me he hasn’t felt the same about me for 5ish years and the depression he has had the last year.was becusde he couldn’t process those emotions.
I have nearly killed myself the last year, whilst supporting my mother who is recovering from a mastectomy.
Trying to get him to spend time with me, asking him to put his god damn phone away and literally doing every household chore and parenting our kids whilst working.
He waited an hour after I told him that my mum was cancer free .... on the eve of my sons 5th birthday.
Today I have spent mainly in tears due to seeing every family in real life and on social media having a wonderful time.
I literally feel like my whole life has fallen apart and feel hopeless.
It’s like the person I trusted most is no longer there and I am struggling to see the 16years before this where he was a good person.
It’s like he has switched his feelings off.
All I feel is fear and I hate myself for it.
I hate that inside I want all this to be a mistake and it can be sorted but then beat myself up becusde I shouldn’t be treated like this.
I deserve love, respect and kindness.
It’s all gone. How can I never trust again
Ughhhhh just needed to write it down
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Vickiuk80 · 24/03/2019 21:51
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