Hello, hoping that someone out there might be able to help me see the wood for the trees!
A year ago, I split up with my daughters dad. We had been together for 8 years (daughter is now 6) and it felt like our relationship had just run its course. I was yearning for a partner who wanted to chat, was interested in me, and essentially be my best friend. But we didn't have that. My ex is a lovely guy but can be quite pessimistic, feels down quite a lot and I suppose I gradually got worn down with trying. So I ended things, moved out and we now have a 50/50 parenting arrangement which is perfectly amicable and our daughter is happy. I have also met someone new who gives me all the things in a relationship that I was craving...... emotional support, obvious love for me and someone who feels like my best friend. So what's the problem? I don't know, but I am falling apart. I wake up every morning when I don't have my daughter, feeling sick, anxious and have this awful feeling that I made a mistake. This isn't the life I wanted for my daughter. I don't think I miss my ex per se, but I do miss our family unit. To the point where it is crippling me. I'm pushing my new guy away. He is being so supportive and understanding but there's only so much one person can take. I'm terrified to carry on down the path of this new life because it means I can never have the natural family unit I always wanted. I can never have my little girl live with me 100% of the time. Equally I know that if I go back to my ex, we would manage and function but I would know that I wasn't sharing my life with my soulmate. The man I am with now.
Sorry for the long post. I don't know what to do. I know this is self sabotage but I don't know how to stop and am falling apart. Just needed to share x
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1 year on and I'm falling apart
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Ahappylife · 28/01/2018 09:31
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